Fuck You Mr. Hero

Chapter 6

The light shined through the blinds shining into Carls eyes waking him up. His throat and head hurt from before he fell asleep. He was dizzy and really dehydrated.

He reluctantly pushed himself out of his bed and went downstairs to the kitchen. He grabbed a glass and filled it up with water.

He chugged it down till it was empty leaning up against the counter. He shut his eyes lifting his head up with a sigh.

"Do you wanna talk about it?" Carl jumped frightened before relaxing stating at Michonne up against the door frame.

He could only shrug his shoulder and stare at the floor. "Carl. I'm here for you. I could never understand what its like being forced to grow up like this."

Carl let out a breath. "How can people do this?" Michonne gave him a strange look.

"Do what?"

"Get close to people. Why would you ever want to get close to someone if they'll just get taken from you at any moment?"

Michonne frowned at his words. "It's important to still be human. Dating-"
Carl shifted uncomfortably im his spot fidgeting catching her attention. "Or friendships are good to have. They give us a reason to fight"

She went and sat next to him jumping onto the counter. "Is this about M/N" the mere mention of his name made Carls mind ring.

'Should I tell her about it?'
'Hows she gonna react?'
'Maybe she can help me?'
'Would she even understand any of it?'

He shook his head and quickly turned to face Michonne.

"He kissed me..."

"Do you like him?"

Carl played with his fingers. "I think so. But I didn't kiss back I just sat there like an idiot and I scared him away. Its just all so confusing he didn't like me at first then he became my friend then we stopped now it's more than friends and I mean do I even know much about him? We're complete opposites what if the only reason he kissed me was to get back at Ron and Enid. What if-"

Michonne grabbed his shoulders forcing hin to stare at her. "Carl. You can't think about every what if you'll drive yourself mad"

He nodded trying to catch his breath from his rant. "I think if you really like him you should go for it. Before Alexandria it was dangerous. I understand being afraid to let people in. Trust me. Its a dark road. Don't walk it alone."

Carl smiled at his friend. He sped out of the house and down the street. He smiled to himself as he walked with his hands in his pockets reversing in his head over and over on what he was going to say to M/N.

He rambled words under his breath when he came to a halt. M/N. He was standing in the field talking to Eugene with a bright grin on his face. Carl admired from afar.

The knot in his stomach was tearing him up inside. He took a step forward hesitantly. A small voice in the back of his mind whispered many negative thoughts.

His heart raced as he took another step then another. With every step he took his confidence went up silencing the anxious thoughts.

When he got half way towards him Eugene left as M/N watched Carl striding straight towards him.

They soon came face to face. Carl opened his mouth to say something but M/N beat him to it.

"Im sorry Carl. I let my emotions get the best of me and I wasn't thinking rationally. Relationships never work out I was stupid to think I could have one. Sorry you got caught up in my mistake."

Carls heart felt like shattering glass. "No I was just-" M/Ns eyes were cold amd dark.

"Im leaving Alexandria" Carls eyebrows furrowed. He shook his head. " No. You can't just leave. What about being here. You have people who care about you and your just gonna abandon them?"

Carls voice raised. "I'm not like you Carl I don't get along with people. I don't do any kind of relationships with anyone I fucked up and became attached. Wake up Carl! when your trying to survive you never get attached its like the number one rule."

"That's bullshit your just scared!"

"Of course Im fucking scared asshole! I have lost every single person who has ever been close to me!" M/N shot back.

"Honestly Carl you cant possibly think that we would be together until we die from old age peacefully. Its just gonna end up how it always does."

Carl cried but stood his ground. "You cant live like that M/N. I don't want to be scared of living anymore."

"Shit happens. Alright its not like we were fucking married anyways I kissed you once" M/N yelled gripping his bag that was wrapped around his back.

"Fuck you. It may have meant nothing to you but it meant a shit ton to me" Carl had tears hiding in the brims of his eyes.

"Dammit Carl!" M/N yelled grabbing him by his collar and pulling him into his chest.

He crashed his lips onto Carls once again. Unlike last time Carl kissed back. There was a slight warmth radiating off of Carls cheeks onto M/Ns.

M/N pulled back with a face of sadness. "Carl.. Your not the reason I have to leave. I got some issues I have to handle but trust me.." He raised his hands and cupped Carls face.

"I will come back for you." Carl held onto his wrist shaking. "Stay alive"
M/N let out an airy laugh. He gave Carl a quick peck on tje head and walked away out of Alexandria.

Carl stared at his back. He repeated to himself over and over again in his head. 'Everything's fine. He'll be okay. He's coming back.'