Forbidden Desire: Aaron Hotchner x Reader

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Aaron
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I didn't get one ounce of sleep last night. The fact that Y/n left last night and that I shouted at her, un rightly so, kept me up all night. My eyes are bloodshot red and I groan as I grab my things and make my way downstairs. Once I arrive I look for everyone and meet Spencer's gaze. He smiles at me and I walk over to him.

"Good morning Hotch- Woah, did you even sleep last night?" He questions and I shake my head
"I couldn't sleep"
"A lot on your mind?" He asks
"You could say that, yes" I say and then Emily walks over to us.

"You should try to sleep on the plane" Spencer says and Emily looks towards my face
"You need to start taking care of yourself and sleeping more Hotch" She says but it sounds like a mother scolding her child.
"I'll be in the car" I say as I pick up my bag and make my way outside.

I sit inside the car and take a swig of my coffee. I sigh as I place it back in the holster and I lean back in my seat. I see everyone come out of the building and make eye contact with Y/n. I'm the first to look away, ashamed of my actions last night. I turn on the engine and wait for everyone to go to their cars. JJ gets into the front of my car and Y/n and Rossi get into the back. I avoid looking at her through the mirrors and start driving.

"Don't ever let me drink again" JJ slightly laughs as she groans at the same time.
"I won't" I say and she rolls her eyes.
"Aaron, I have some news for you" Rossi says and I look at him though the mirror, slightly catching Y/n's gaze too.

"What is it?"
"We have someone new joining the team" he says and I furrow my brows
"Do we? Who are they?" I ask
"Yes we do, and their name is Philip. He's transferring from Canada" He says and I nod
"When do we meet him?" JJ asks
"As soon as we get back" Rossi answers

We arrive at the plane and we all file in, everyone taking their usual seats but I sit by myself, wanting to be in my own company. I feel her eyes on me but I ignore them as I have no clue what to do or say to her.

I get a phone call and everyone's gaze turns to me before I answer the call.
"Aaron Hotchner" I state
"Aaron, how are you?" Harry, Y/n's bestfriend asks
"Harry?" I answer confused and I see Y/n looks confused too.
"I was just phoning to ask you a question" He says
"Go on"
"How is she?"
"What do you mean? Don't you speak everyday?"
"She's been avoiding my calls, I'm worried about her" He sighs and I lick my lips
"Give me a second" I say as I stand up and walk towards the bathroom.

I stand outside the bathroom and put the phone back to my ear.
"I can talk freely now" I say
"She seems fine, I'm not exactly sure why she's been avoiding you"
"Trust me Aaron, If she's avoiding me... somethings wrong" He says and I sigh
"I'll find out what's wrong" I say and i hear him sigh too
"Thank you so much, I'm sorry for calling... I didn't know who else to call"
"It's fine, I'll get her to call you. Goodbye" I say
"Goodbye" He says and I hang up the call.

I make my way back to my seat and sit down. I feel Y/n's gaze on me still and I lift up my eyes to meet her gaze. I feel a buz come from my phone and I look at my screen. I see a text from Y/n that reads 'Can we talk?' I look back over to her and type a message.
'When we land, go to my office' I say and put my phone back in my pocket.

We have finally landed and I walk up to my office, sitting down in my chair and leaning back. I hear a knock.
"Come in" I say and Y/n walks in the room
"Hey" she says as she sits in front of me
"Hi"
"Why did Harry call you?" She asks
"You've been avoiding him" I shrug
"He called you to snitch on me?" She slightly laughs

"He's worried about you, call him" I answer
"I will tonight"
"Good"
"Can we talk about last night?" She says and I sigh as I nod.
"I'm so sorry for my behaviour" I say as I sit up in my seat
"So am I, thank you" She answers