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After dinner, Jin took Jungkook to the Han river, they walked by the river. It really felt like a dream, 11 years apart, they had almost forgotten each other's voice and face.
"Jungkook-ah"
"Yeah hyung"
"We sit over there, okay?" Jungkook nodded and they went to a chair facing the river.
"Hyungg.."
"Hmm"
"Can I ask about your boyfriend?"
"Actually we're not dating"
"What do you mean? Tae said you and him are getting married"
"Yes, but we've never dated, during my mother's illness, he's always beside me, we've been friends for a long time and he always helps me even when I'm at my worst" Jungkook lowered his head, he felt jealous when Jin said that. Even though in the past he was the only one who could do that for his hyung and eomma.
"Then why did you marry him if he wasn't your boyfriend?" Jungkook asked with his head still down. Jungkook turned to look at Jin because he didn't get any answer from Jin.
"Hyung..." Jin looked at Jungkook and smiled.
"Jungkook-ah"
"Hmm"
"Don't I have to pay for all the good he has done to me so far? He gave his time to take care of me and eomma, even though in my heart I have someone else but... I would be very bad if I let him down."
"What do you mean hyung? You have someone else in your heart?" Jin nodded.
"He's very special, but I'm sure he's never seen me" Jin kept looking into Jungkook's eyes.
"Have you ever asked him? Why are you sure he didn't see you?"
"Because as long as I know him, he always calls me by another name, he is so adorable, every day I always look at his sleeping face, hoping he will see me as someone"
"You slept with him?"
"Of course, I slept with him for 15 years" Jungkook widened his eyes, he couldn't believe his hyung's words.
"H-Hyung..."
"Yes Jungkook-ah"
"Who said he didn't see you as a person? He was afraid because he was only a child at the time, he felt his feelings would only drive him away from you"
"Jungkook-ah.."
"I also love someone who always hugs me when I sleep hyung" Jungkook smiled.
"Not as a hyung, but my love is more than that" Jungkook smothered Jin's warm cheeks.
"Hyung.. do you love me?" Jin closed his eyes and when he opened them his tears flowed and he nodded.
"Yes.. I love you Jungkook-ah" Jungkook immediately kissed Jin, making Jin silent at that time. He didn't respond to Jungkook's kiss and his eyes were still wide. His heart was really beating really fast.
When Jungkook pulled his lips back and looked at Jin, he gave his best smile, the smile that Jin always loved.
"I love you too Kim Seokjin" Jin smiled and he grabbed the back of Jungkook's neck and kissed him. Jungkook immediately returned the kiss.
He didn't care about the people watching them there. One of Jin's hands began to embrace Jungkook's waist and brought him up on his lap, their kiss didn't let go, it even got deeper and hotter. Jungkook wrapped his arms around Jin's neck.
"Don't marry him hyung.." Suddenly those words made Jin stop kissing him. The hands that were on Jungkook's hips also slowly began to weaken. Jin pulled his head and looked at Jungkook in front of him.
"Don't marry him, if you love me"
"Jungkook-ahh.. but I promised, I will marry him and make him happy" tears flowed down Jungkook's cheeks, he woke up from Jin's lap and Jin stood in front of him.
"But..but you said you love me"
"Jungkook--"
"Stop.. so you mean, with the love you have for me, and I who am here won't change your decision? Then what was that kiss for? Was it our goodbye kiss?"
"No, Jungkook-ah listen to hyung first--"
"You will still marry him even though you love me and I love you? Then what about me hyung?"
"You weren't here all that time Jungkook and--"
"And you blame me because I wasn't there at your worst time? Did you think I wanted to be like that?"
"Not like that Jungkook-ah.. please listen to me first--" when Jin wanted to grab Jungkook's hand, Jungkook pulled his hand.
"No.. why are you tell your feelings to me if you're still going to marry him hyung, I think my presence here can make you change your mind. In fact your mind won't change" when Jungkook wanted to leave Jin held him back.
"Jungkook-ah! What should I do? Do you think it's easy to be me? I don't blame you because you weren't there when I needed you, but in fact he was the one beside me and--"
"Did you sleep with him too? Tae said you live together with him"
"Jungkook-ahh--"
"Don't touch me! You love me but.. why are you so selfish hyung?"
"Jungkook-ah I didn't do anything with him, I swear"
"I don't want to hear anything from you hyung" Jungkook left, he ran leaving Jin.
"Jungkook-ahhhh!!!" When Jin was about to chase Jungkook, his phone rang, it was from Soobin. Immediately he glanced at his phone screen. He remembered what Jungkook said. He knew all along he loved Jungkook, but what about Soobin. He saw Jungkook getting farther away from him and the sound of the phone kept ringing.
"Ohhh shit!!" Jin muttered and turned off his phone, put it in his coat pocket and ran after Jungkook, then hugged him from behind. He heard Jungkook cry and it broke his heart.
"Let me go!"
"Jungkook-ah.. what should I do?"
"Let me go hyung!"
"I will never let you go Jungkook-ah, never"
"Have you ever been honest with yourself when you were with him, hyung?"
"Jungkook--"
"I'm sure he knows me because you introduced me as your little brother." Jin closed his eyes and hugged Jungkook tightly.
"What should I do?"
"Do what's best for you, now let me go" Jin turned Jungkook around and saw his red eyes and wet cheeks.
"I really lied to my own feelings when I was with him, I didn't want to hurt him, I told him everything about us and I thought he knew there was something between us, but I convinced him that you were just my brother, because I thought that was how we were. I know I was wrong because lied to him about my feelings for you, but what should i do Jungkook-ah?
"Then marry him, forget about me, after all my mother asked me to marry Taehyung, so it's better for us to forget about each other" Jin was silent, his chest hurt so much at that time.
"W-what?"
"Let me go hyung" Jin slowly released his hand from Jungkook.
"All this time I've always been waiting for this moment, meeting you and expressing my feelings that I've been taking good care of, even though I can actually do what you're doing. Tae is very good to me, but I always ignore him. I'm afraid to disappoint you if you know what I did, but it turned out that I was the one who was disappointed, but that's okay, I'm glad at least we've done a farewell tonight, I'm waiting for your invitation" Jungkook wiped his tears and smiled.
"And one more thing, send me where eomma's grave is, I'll come there myself, bye hyung" Jungkook left Jin alone there.
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The Way Back To You // JINKOOK
Fanfiction•Short Story• Jeon Jungkook was cared for since childhood by the Kim family. Mrs. Jeon asked them to look after little Jungkook when he was 1 year old. from then on, he became a part of the Kim family. Jungkook is very close to their son, Kim Seokji...
