Destiny~

Acceptance

My eyes flutter open. I feel arms wrapped around my waist. They're wrapped so tightly, I can't turn around to see the mysterious person. All I can see is the black void that surrounds us. I almost jump out of my skin as I feel the person put their chin in the space connecting my neck and shoulder. I can feel their hot breath on my neck, my blood rushing to my cheeks. Their lips are very close to my ear, causing my cheeks to flare up more.

"Why are you scare, Izuku?"

I gasped, but his left hand moved quickly to cover my mouth. Even though I can't see his face, I know he is smirking. His right arm wraps around my waist even tighter, his neck now feeling the space his chin used to sit. From the corner of my eye, I could see his face looking at me, a smirk the most prominent thing I could see. Even though his hand was covering my mouth, I managed to squeeze out one word.

"K-Kacchan?"

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"Problem child!"

I jolt awake, confused on where I am. It takes a few seconds for me to recall, I accidentally fell asleep during class, because I didn't sleep the night before. I also recall the dream, blood rushing to my cheeks once more.

"The only one that can sleep in this class is me, if I catch you asleep one more time, you're getting sent to principal Nezu"

"Yes, Aizawa-sensei..."

I cover my mouth and try to calm myself down. I can't be flustered right now! I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths. I massage my temples and let out a deep sigh. The worst thing about the dream is that I can still feel his arm around my waist, his hand covering my mouth. I brush my lips with my fingers. I suddenly become wide-eyed and smack my cheeks. Why did I think something like that? Why did I wonder what Kacchan's lips taste like? My eyes shift to the blonde boy in front of me. I clench my fist and teeth. Remember, you don't love him. Remember, he could hurt you again. Remember, you are just a puppet on strings.

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I slammed my door shut. I ran to the bathroom, barely remembering to take off my shoes and drop my bag. I look up to see a boy staring back at me, panting, sweating, blushing. I splash water on my face and steady my breathing. I can see what the boy is feeling. He is in love, but won't deny it. Meanwhile, I am in love, but will keep denying it. I've seen Ray have his heart broken over and over and over again, I've already had it happen once. Never again. Never again will I let that happen.

I exit the bathroom and grab my phone. I rushed out to the balcony. I leaned on the railing, feeling the wind in my hair, my shirt moving slightly. I take out ear buds and fit them into my ears. I plug the cord into my phone and start to play my music. I need to clear my thoughts. I know I can't deny these feelings forever, so I'll have to get rid of them completely. That's the only way I'll be able to move on with my life. If I can't get over these feelings, then I'll never move forward. Besides, Kacchan deserves someone better.

"You're hopeless, you know"

"Wha- Ray?"

He flashes a smirk and slides off the railing to stand next to me. I know he knows I'm in denial. He can read me better than myself.

"I understand why you're beating yourself up over these feelings. It's because of the past. But if you continue to deny all of this because of the past, then you'll never move forward. The only way to move forward, is to pursue these feelings you have"

I look over to him. His smirk has disappeared, replaced with a soft smile. He's telling the truth. I knew this before he even said anything. But, it's hard to let go. It's hard to let go of the worst time in my life.

"I know, but I just can't seem to let go"

"That's what I'm here for"

I look over to him and see a big smile on his face. I give soft smile in return and shift my gaze to the ground.

"Heh, thanks"

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I run and run and run. Thoughts are flowing through my head and I have to stop. I can't even enjoy my daily run anymore. I find a bench near where I've stopped to take a break. I have a headache. Runs usually help clear my headaches. This time, a run caused my headache. I'm a mess.

I breathe out and look up. The rising sky is a beauty. It calms me down enough to think. Ray'll help me, but I don't think I need it. I just need to move on. I forgave, but forgetting might be a bit harder. I don't care though. I'll wait as long as it takes. There's only thing I truly need to change.

I can't be in denial any longer. The more I push it all away, the more pain I cause myself. I take a deep breath and let it out with a sigh. I know how I feel, I need to embrace it to move on. I can't push it away while trying to move on. The process will just go slower.

I accept that I am deeply in love with Katsuki Bakugo.