Rotten Water (NaruSasu)

Well deserved

I couldn't see him but I know his face had frozen up, his hand had been stuck in it's place and his breathing sounded faint unlike a few minutes ago where it was powerful. This scared me, made me overthink 

I slowly threw the sheet off me, looking up at him and even placing my hand on his thigh (an accident but a happy one). His eyes lost their usual shine, he was completely frozen in place, which only frightened me more because he was usually bursting with energy and his eyes were always glimmering 

"D-Did I say something w-wrong..? I'm so.. s-sorry..." 
I apologize, my voice quivering and tears swelling in my eyes in regret of what seemed to be a major mistake 

His warm hand placed itself on my shoulder, his stare directed toward me. It's even worse when he looks directly me, hints of regret in his pupils, blonde locks falling on his forehead so still it's comparable to a statue, a grip so tight I felt as if I should never leave his side 

I felt so guilty, had I been the cause of this strange glare? He seems so cold now, unlike his usual energetic and warm self, it's frightening. All I wanted to do is grab his face and tell him how sorry I was, tell him why I've done this, and about my situation 

I felt tears prickle my eyes, I felt like such a disappointment. I know he's my math teacher and all, but he feels so important to me, making him feel anything negative toward me would be unbearable 

"N-Narut-"

"O-Oh I'm sorry I must have zoned out there" 
He apologizes in a completely normal tone, like nothing just happened 
"Are you okay? You mustn't be up with such a high temperature" 

He confused me so much in that moment. He was just still as stone five seconds ago and now he's just the same as before? It's strange, but I'm glad he's back I guess 

"Have you eaten anything today?" 
He asks, noticing his hand on my shoulder and blushing a little 

He- He blushed!? Oh my god he's so fucking cute right now! I just wanna take a brain screen shot Oh my godnesssssss! 

"O-Oh I-I Uh.. I-I a-ate pean-nuts last n-n-night a-and a-a-a raw t-tomato.. this... Morning.." 
I couldn't tell, but I felt as if I were incomprehensible at the moment 

He placed the back of his hand on my forehead, "Oh my, you must have a high temperature, lay down I'll turn on the fan. Is there anything you're allergic to?" 

"N-No.. N-Nothing" 
I answer, regrettably tearing my hand away from his muscular thigh, though he pushed me to the sheets which was kind of a turn on 

 "Good, I'll make some food, you just rest up" 
His light blush fades as he removes his hand from my shoulder and leaves 

I began to shiver, chills rolled down my spine and flashes of heat strike in his absence. My heart beats quickly, veins around tensing up so hard it was painful, like I couldn't live without him 

Something about his eyes, the way my pupils lock onto them and observe every speck of bright blue in his iris', the way his eyebrows perfectly shaped above his eyes are angled, like he is always in a state of loving, it's hypnotizing. He's always so positive, maybe someone like him would be able to take my daughter from me, maybe he'd be able to get her out of this hell of a house and give her a proper education 

Lily is a smart girl, but I don't want her to go to a normal school, she'll be bullied and eventually she'll become like me, unwilling to open up to anyone and depressed. Goodness, maybe I should put her in an adoption center, she may have a chance at a better life if she were in the loving arms of others 

Goodness, I truly don't deserve happiness do I? 

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I know it was shorter than usual sorry-
Bye Bye
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