My Tides -Thanatos and Eros-

Defense

My heart aches loudly as I suddenly jolt up with a deep sad lump in my throat.

I struggle for air.

It wants to burst out of me screaming.

This flood of tears.

Calm down, Amara!

But my lungs hastily squeeze the breath out of me.

Just let it happen!

I am so sad!

Why?

Such a deep sadness.

Why does this have to happen to me?

I hate it.

And it scares me.

But I fell asleep contentedly.

And sleep wanted to show itself kindly.

I granted it, after all.

And never do I remember my dreams.

It is only sadness.

It is only sadness, Amara.

You won't die from it.

It must be Maxim's sadness.

He must be very upset.

He finally remembers that kiss.

Knows the end part of the story.

And feels the attraction to Nathan.

It's clear he's sad.

He just doesn't know what to do with himself.

Calm down, Maxim!

Everything's going to be fine!

You've just met your match.

You're just as good for Nathan as he is for you.

You'll become one.

But you have a lot of work to do.

Work to do.

Keep your sadness company.

You can quietly listen to your inner voice.

And allow your body to follow its impulses.

I clutch my heart as I think of Maxim.

I beat in time with you, my Adonis.

I feel you.

And I will give you Nathan's light.

Together you will be safe.

I will keep you safe.

Eros will caress your Thanatos.

You will be intimately interwoven with each other.

In the eternal flight of free love, you will protect each other.

Protection.

And I feel the impact this word has on me.

I will offer protection to all of them.

To all whom I love, I will offer protection.

And my heart seems to want to show again, in the too fast beat a stirring.

Deep feelings that want to make me break.

I will not let that happen!

No!