She isn't married to me

Chapter 8: A fool of myself

ADRIA

Emma is so sweet, and I like her bedroom, I'm sure she is one or two years older than Andrew. All his family have been so sweet with Sophie and I since we arrived, totally the opposite from Fred's family. There is only one thing that is worrying me big time, these clothes. The colors are ok but they are a bit tight. I haven't worn clothes like these since I'm a mom. I don't look like a mom anymore with these clothes, I look like a teen, and this tank top, why does it have to be so small? Everything fits on me in a way Fred could die if he sees me like this. Gosh, I'll have to visit Jackie before going home.

I can't do anything about this, thank you handsome Andrew for ruining my dress. I start walking downstairs thinking nobody will notice me anyway, but that changes when I hear Sophie screaming at the end of the stairs "Mom! You look wow! Wear those clothes every day, please."

I walk faster and speak slowly to her ear "Thank you, my darling, I'll try."

She starts running back to the backyard and right by the door it's him. He's staring at me, I blush instantly. Where can I hide? He must not know he has some effect on me, he's a boy, I'm married and have a kid.

I say Sophie's name just to have some sort of escape, but he's faster and walks straights to me.

"Adria, you look a... amazing, is everything ok?" he asks me with a worried look on his eyes and I want to hug him for being so respectful.

I smile and answer back " Oh, yes, I'm ok, I'm just not used to wear clothes like these, you have seen the clothes I normally wear, they are not so tight on my body."

He looks at me and with no hesitation on his words he speaks "I know, but you don't have to be ashamed, you have a nice body, you shouldn't hide it".

"Thank you, I'll try" of course first I'll try to hide the heat I feel on my face, I wasn't expecting to hear those words, I need a hole and hide in it until this party is over.

He keeps staring at me like if he is thinking on telling me something but he backs away and I walk to the backyard to help his mom. He follows me, of course he will do that and helps his mom, too, and now I'm nervous, every time he gets close to me, every time he touches my hand, or my arm I get goosebumps. Please don't notice it or this will be my end. All of a sudden, I hear his dad.

"Everybody, everybody! listen to me, I want to make a toast to thank everybody for being here today." He clears his throat and continue. "My wife and I have been married for 22 years and we can't be prouder of our kids and everything we have achieved. I love you so much honey I don't have enough words to express it. I wish one of these days my kids feel the same way I feel about you and meet that person that make them feel goosebumps with only one touch. Cheers everybody!"

I don't drink alcohol so I grab a glass of water, I am drinking when I see Andrew leaning his head down. He is way taller than me, and he whispers on my ear "I have met that person who makes me feel goosebumps every time I touch her."

He didn't say that, no no no. Why?

I spit the water I was drinking; everyone turns their head facing us, and I can only say "I'm sorry, I drank too much water."

Andrew laughs. I felt this coming after all, if he didn't know it before, he surely knows now. What am I going to do?

Jackie will laugh at me; she already told me it will be a matter of time before Andrew makes his move. I agreed to come here because I knew Fred won't come home until Monday, so when Andrew said the words "family reunion" I wanted to jump of happiness, and now I see Sophie enjoying so much that I can't help this feeling of wishing I can live something like this more often.

"I'm sorry I didn't want to make you spit the water in front of everyone" he says but I can feel the doble sense of those words running from my head to my toes.

Although I'm not shy, I don't know how to make him feel an inch of what he is making me feel, my words towards him are so vague "It's ok, I'm getting used to be the center of attention since the moment I step inside this house, fortunately I'm not feeling bad about it"

He looks at me, I have seen that curious look on his eyes before, he can't contain the words and asks "Do you know where is Fred or when does he come back?"

There they are, I knew it was a matter of time before he asks about my dear husband "I don't know where he is, he didn't mention that before he left, he only said he'll come back on Monday"

Now I look straight to his eyes to see what I can get that doesn't give me more hope than I already have from this situation. He wants to smile but instead he bites his lower lip and says "I understand, aren't you afraid to be in your house only with Sophie?"

Why is he asking me that question? I wish I can invite him over; I don't know where am I taking these ideas from, I'm out of my mind, this isn't me "No, I have Jackie as my neighbor and I my house has an alarm. Besides, being without him is one of the best feelings in the world" finally, I said it. I guess more to me than to him.

I try to find something else to distract myself from when he slowly grabs my chin and makes me look into his eyes "If I were your husband, I will never do that to you."

For some reason those words remind me of Fred, and without thinking I say "Yeah, that's what Fred said before we got married."