Betrayal

Chapter 2

I was sitting on my brothers bed staring at him with my jaw open....it had been two weeks since I found out that Alec cheated on me. Schools about to end and since I let Alec give me the gift after I joined the pack I had to be homeschooled cause it was all on me, i didnt want to lose control at school one day. Since I came home I had left all my school stuff with the pack.  Its dean's junior year as well as mine since Im so smart. Its a week before summer, and on that information lets go on. what my brother just said surprised me so much "what?!" he smiled "I said I want you to change me... ya know into a wolf and all" I laughed "it's not a game... you get real sick and can... your can get fever. And sometimes people can't make the change dean and die. DIE. plus me and some of our old friends are going camping this weekend once schools over this week to celebrate the new summer. I'll have to have time to teach you how to control your wolf and everything." He sighed "I know what I'm doing and if you do it now I can come camping too! I have all my credits an finals done so come on!" I rolled my eyes. "I'll change you dean an try to give you the gift But if i lose you, i wont be able to live with myself.." he nodded and looked like an eager puppy "im strong. I can do it..." " well as you know, you don't decide your wolf. It's not like the stories where it's your hair color. My hairs light brown but as you saw my wolfs black with gray eyes." He nodded "I get it trust me, I've been looking into it and paid attention to what we talked about. I want this." I sighed "you're acting like it's not a big deal dean. Its a gift not a whatever this will just fall into place kinda thing. If you're 100 percent I'll go ahead and bite you. Here are the rules till it's under control too. No going outside after the bite because who knows how long it will take for your wolf to surface, it always varies. Sign one of the change is high fever. The second one will be the aches and pains. Then your close to the end of it. The very end is when your wolf has surfaced and become known. You'll get continuous mood swings and constantly feel a weird tingling until your first shift then your body's adapted. Once everything has calmed down you'll be able to find your mate or you one true person. If you've come to terms with everything I just said and still agree and understand give me your arm"
           He extended his arm out to me and I let my canines emerge. My wolf had been unusually quiet during the whole talk without making a smart comment which surprised me but as I was about to sink my teeth in she spoke up "what if you lose him?" "Then you can have full control and become the true host" "well that's fine by me. Go ahead." I rolled my eyes and bit down. Yeah we have wolves but some you get where they don't like having no control and not having full control over they're own bodies. When your in human form it's easy to keep control but in the wolf it's easy for them to take control and become a feral wolf and your trapped in your own mind. They want control and it's up to you to give them full control or suppress them and keep living as a both human and wolf. I try to suppress her or at least keep her in check unless it's required for me to let her out. Sometimes she'll willingly give back power or I have to take it to gain control.It's rare though for a wolf and the human to not live in harmony as long as they come to terms. Or if they want control and you never gain it back or just simply give up. Your wolf will take all the power and you will be pushed farther and farther from the subconscious and it will make it more difficult to come out. If this happens we are considered dangerous for if a wolf where too run around with no other conscious being advising it it will do as it pleases. Hopefully that never happens to me or anyone I know. But I will accept it if I lose dean.
        I retracted my canines and got up walking to our adjoining bathroom and got a hot rag. I walked back to him wiping my mouth and then wiping his arm clean. He hadn't said anything since he agreed so I peeked at him with worry in my eyes "are you okay?" He only nodded. I felt sudden guilt for turning him so soon yeah he said he was ready but I was being stupid and too excited for him to be one of us "I'm sorry I should have gave you more time to think about it even though you said you'd been ready and had been thin-" he cut me off "no I'm happy you did. I'm just thinking on what life will be like after this ya know I mean yeah it's gonna continue and all but how. It's just so many things and I'm happy about it all." I had a small smile relieved he felt that way. "We can talk about that later right now you need to rest and focus on the change. If we're anything alike it's not gonna be too long before it starts taking over." I didn't want to leave him alone so I grabbed my blankets and pillows making a pallet on the floor at the foot of his bed. I was in a light sleep when woke to his groans and gasping. It's started. It around five in the morning so it's been seven hours since the bite. I shot off the floor went to the bathroom as quiet as I could be with his groaning. I grabbed the bottle of Advil and put four in my hand and decided to just bring he whole bottle with me incase. I walked to the bed and opened his mouth poring a little cold water in and closed it commanding him to swallow. He did as he was told and I gave him a bit more water. I went back to the bathroom and ran a washcloth under cold water returning to him and dabbing it around his face. He let out another painful gasp "it feels. like. my insides .are shredding. themselves." I simply nodded "I know. You just have to last. Just hold on and ride through the pain dean." I wiped his face one last time before going to lay back on the floor when he clasped my wrist "no, stay with me. The medicines slowly kicking in... just stay" I nodded and climbed in his bed "okay I'm here" his breathing was evening out "thank you for being here... I mean you probably don't have a choice since but I'm happy it was you who introduced me to this world and turned me. And thank you for taking care of me, it means a lot." I let out a short laugh "trust me even if I wasn't the one that had turned you I'd still be here" I felt the bed shake as if he where laughing and then it stopped when he let out a gasp"it still hurts here an there" I nodded "yeah it will for a while cause your cells are literally tearing themselves apart trying to fight the gift but it wins out and the hard part is over. When that's over though we have a lot more to talk about like the mood swings and meeting your wolf but that's for another time." He nodded and I put my palm on his ribs and felt his heart even out. He was sleeping. The sudden tiredness I had washed over me and I was in a sleep next to him as well.
       I woke up to the bed cold and by myself. Where dean go??  I jumped up and whispered dean to see if he was in the restroom. Nothing. I scurried out the room and down the hall towards the living room and kitchen. I could hear my dad snoring in his room. It's a Sunday so my parents don't work. I came to a stop in the living room and heard a shuffling in the kitchen. Bingo. I found dean eating a sandwich and let a sigh of relief "next time you get up wake me up. I have to keep an eye on you at all times until you go through the change completely." He took another bite and nodded. He offered me the other half of his sandwich and I gladly accepted I looked to the clock and saw it was noon. He seems to be out of the woods for now. He was still recovering from his fever for he was sweating and his cheeks a crazy red. I took a bite of the sandwich "why didn't you wake me up?" "I figured you needed the sleep since I hear you in your room all night moving around am doing stuff." It had been quiet and I finished my sandwich. "I'm sorry to spring on you now but before the end of the summer we have to leave." He looked at me like I was crazy " what do you mean?" "Since were on our own to other wolves were considered rogues and since this is a packs territory were trespassing and Alec being the alpha I don't think they'll chase us out." He looked at the counter and finished his sandwich "alright when do we leave?"
       "End of the camping trip."