Saudade

Harsh love

Based on differences between me and my friends from healthy households
and how we love and are loved differently

You were loved

You say you're welcome
I whisper no problem
It's the perfect characterisation of us
One loved
One damned

You radiate love
Driving me mad with envy
For the love you received and that you distribute

The world isn't fair
But that does not mean it doesn't hurt

It's not your fault you pain me so
But still I cannot stand the sight of you
For even in our joy, it mingles with grief
However that is alright

You are loved by me
You were loved at home
I'll stand in your rays
Collect the scraps
A futile attempt at healing
A leap for easy breathing

Segundo amor

Silver blue door slammed at screaming
Glistening moonlight trickled in
The silver branches and moon glowed
I watched them longing,y

I rolled out of bed, my soft feet on the wood
Trotted to the tall window
Stood on a toy box to gaze up
The past greeted me and the moon kissed me

I flew away from my room
We took the second star to the right
We laughed and danced with mirth
I fell in love with the moon

She kissed my forehead
Placed me in my bed and slithered back into my door
She watched me in the night
My very own partisan who fought me in the darkest hour

A minha lua, o meu segundo amor

Hard to love

The most difficult people to love are those who need it most
The ones who crave it as a drowning man craves water
Those who cannot grasp the love they receive

Their hands burned from past declarations
The scars impeding them from accepting tenderness
No matter how often the kindness is repeated
Not knowing how else to truly react

Sometimes it is best to stand by
To reassure them ever so often under the stars
Light the candle and inch it closer to their scars
Keeping the flames afar whilst revelling in their beauty