𝗦𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 | 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗻 𝗸𝗶𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗶𝗻 OLD

05.

𝗦𝗼𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 | 𝗷𝗲𝗮𝗻 𝗞𝗶𝗿𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗶𝗻 ✓

WARNING.

mention of Dirty-talk,thigh riding,sex,suicide,self-harm,drug useage, and alcohol useage.

an: Hello. This is the author. This comes from my experience like i stated in the an. I do not recommend for anyone who cannot handle the topics warned. Thank you.

last an for reminder ! ''authors note : hello. My name is L. I am the author of this book. Please do be aware this book is from my personal experience. Not the sex just the relationship. Next chapter will be a different 'format.' The next chapter is a flashback to Y/ns past. This chapter will include multiple harsh topics as mention of suicide and mention of self harm. The next chapter will all be in Y/ns mind, her thoughts, feelings, how she felt about -, and how - impacted her.Thanks for reading only 6 more chapters to go my loves. !''

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[Flashback.]

Y/n's POV.

I saw her hanging in the middle of the room.

Rethink.

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I couldn't breathe. I stared at her. ''Hey whats the big-'' I just stared at her. I pulled out my phone calling 911.''This wasn't your fault Y/n.'' ''It was your fault.''

Stop.

Rethink.

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Rethink.

Stop thinking. It wasn't your fault. Why'd she do it.Was it because of me?School?Her boyfriend?Her friends?Parents?Stress?Everything?Everything.

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