What about me?

Part 13

 "Thanks Tae." I smile and bite a piece of crispy bacon. "Mmm, good. Where's my omelet, sir?" Tae chuckles as he walks over and flips an omelet into my plate. "Thanks babe." Sasha immediately looks at me and narrows her eyes.

Tae kisses the top of my head.

Sasha clears her throat and takes a strip of bacon. "Hey I've gotta go. My hubby and two babies are waiting. Tae, it's been a pleasure. Well, more for Kookie of course, but you know what I mean." I grit my teeth and then chuckle. Sasha is going to be Sasha and she's still my best girl.

"Sasha, you're shameless." I complain as Tae snickers and Sasha rolls her eyes.

"Kookie, walk me out." I follow her to the door while Tae cooks his omelet. Bam, of course, is at my side and we say goodbye to his mama.

She pets Bam's belly and gives him a new chew toy and he runs off to play. I give her gifts for my two precious godchildren, followed by a hug.

"Kookie, he's amazing and gorgeous. But what the fuck is this babe shit?" She keeps her voice low. "This is an affair not a goddamn honeymoon. It's not long term. Have fun and fuck for the holidays and maybe longer with boundaries. Maybe I shouldn't have suggested this for you. Did you guys talk?"

"Well kind of. Okay no." I shift my eyes towards the floor.

"Goddamn it Kookie!"

"What? We both know what this is Sasha. We're adult dating and his brother told him about this concept. Oh, Sasha it was so hot last night." My eyes widen with excitement. "Look, I know how to detach. We both aren't ready for anything serious. He also was dumped like me, and we don't want to be hurt. We'll talk later. He was an amazing date yesterday."

"Detach? Like you did with Akito's ass? A lot of good that did you.  Yes, you have to detach but remember feelings tells us things. Don't avoid them. If they're taking you somewhere you don't want to go, the relationship is done. At least your affair and..." I rush in and cut Sasha off as nervous tension rises in me.

"No way. Not signing up for that pain again." I vigorously shake my head trying to keep my voice low.

"Bestie, you do know that you might find a good man too. Maybe this will be more. The phony affair can end and the real one can begin." She smiles softly. I pull my arms across my chest and take a defiant position.

"Ha, this isn't real." I spit through my teeth. "Men like Taehyung don't exist." My eyes narrow and go dark while Sasha's fill with tears. She steps back and looks at me as if she doesn't know me. She's slow with a response, which is not Sasha.

"Kookie, that bitch Akito really fucked you up." Her words slowly drags. "You're scared." I rapidly blink my eyes trying to wrap my brain around what she's saying. Fuck, he did. And being in a relationship scares the shit out of me. I'm great at pushing my feelings down. She shakes her head with concern. I step forward and pull her into a tight hug.

"I'm sorry Sasha, I'll be fine." I say softly and dismissively. I know it's dangerous. I promise to pay attention to my feelings. I give you permission to slap the shit out of me if  you see me going away and avoiding. I smile big and she slowly cracks a smile.

"Bitch you know I will." We both laugh. "I'm sorry, I wasn't there for you with Akito but you gotta talk to  me. Kookie, also remember that Tae has feelings too. This time I'm gonna keep an eye on your horny ass." A soft laugh filters through her nose. I smile wide and nod.

"Thanks Sasha. I love you.  I'm having fun and, if you get out of here, I hope to have more."

"Okay, but remember I got my bat." I roll my eyes.