Monkey Nuts

Abyss

Me and a couple of friends are headed out to sea, with no destination. Like a piece of driftwood, going where the ocean takes us, trusting that it'll be worth it. The ocean is truly beautiful. For me, this is my life. The ocean is my everything. I feel at home. For a while we all relax and decided to bond, we never get to do outings like this anymore. Life's gotten a bit much to handle. The waters were calm, at least we thought so, until the boat suddenly got hit with a massive wave, the whole boat tipped, throwing each and every one of us off and without a warning, a second wave hits us and suddenly we're in a storm. We must've been too busy drinking to have noticed it. "I can't see anyone." I think to myself as i'm pulled away by the ocean current, like a piece of trash floating around, meaninglessly. I try to calm myself down, but its no use. My heartbeat's pounding inside my chest, like a hammer being hit every time i take a breath. I never would've thought that the thing I loved most in life, would turn on me in such a terrible way. I don't know where I am. It's night already, we had planned to sleep inside the boat, but I guess it's not possible anymore. I'm just floating here, waiting for something or someone to come rescue me. Is this it? Is this how my life ends? My heart starts beating faster, my breathing tighter. "No this can't be." I think to myself. I've always had trust in my heart, the logical thinking was my mind's responsibility. My mind tells me to not give up. But my heart knows what's coming. My heart aches. It hurts. I just want to be home. A few hours have passed. It's still complete darkness, I can't see anything around me. I can feel my legs getting numb and my arms starting to spasm. I can't give up. " Not now, please!" I paddle and kick through the pain. It's not enough. I can feel myself getting more tired by the second and my body slowly sinking down. My movements start to slow down, until only my face is above the water. I stare into the sky, into the stars, wishing something would come and save me, but its no use. "Me and mom used to love doing this when I was younger" I smirk as I feel my body giving up. I'm going to miss her. I gaze into the stars, one last time.