I came on here to write about thoughts that I've been feeling about myself.
I feel as though there are many things I want to work on, so I feel more like myself.
Because as of right now I feel as though I do somethings to make myself seem cool to other people and I feel like I need to just live and express myself as me no matter what other people think. I want to be my TRUE self and as I coming to my 18th birthday I feel like I want to grow into MYSELF.
A lot of new things happened like on Friday I got my new car and I'm soooo happy I got it, I honestly can't believe it but there is also a part where I want to show it off to seem cool and I need to stop because I feel embarrassed of myself when I do things like that. FUCK what people think I need to be ME! Im saying this a lot because I really need to work on that part of me. If I don't want to do something, don't do it.
On top of that the thought of college is soooo present since I'm a senior but I really don't know what I want to do in life. I know it's very common for people to not know but I feel like I don't want to settle on a decision just yet. But my time is running out and I really do want to go to college. But besides that I want to live life. This feels really refreshing because I've been saying this out loud a lot to myself but writing it down feels more relieving. I think that's all I have to say as of right now. But I think I'm gonna do this more often, since I'm doing more self-reflecting lately. toodles ;) <3
- rexarie
