anything and everything in between

falling constellations

I apologize for the lies

I tell you it's over and that we can't be friends
But in reality I never truly wanted anything to end
For it feels like you've always been by my side
Forever being my guide

I apologize for every late night I stayed up blaming you in my mind
Knowing you could never defend yourself
And then I blame you
For my failing mental health

I apologize for going insane
But no matter how hard I try, you're always in my brain
I see you every night like falling constellations
And I just can't help my heart's elation

I apologize because now we can never repair it
The damage I did was irreparable
You want nothing to do with me anymore
And I know that I'm the one responsible

I apologize for the lies
I will forever miss the warmth in your eyes