This Charming Life [Chibs Telford]

Chapter 32: Beer Buzz

*unedited*

RJS POV

Days later I sat in the club 7am drinking my 3rd beer. I can't sleep in my own home anymore. Chibs I love him but it's not the same as the comfort I want from my dad, I can't have that either now. My dad destroyed all my emotions I doubt I will be the same.

I see all the sad looks the guys give me, she way they treat me like I'm a already broken piece of glass. I hate it! Alyssa said I don't need to drink for 6 months yeah fuck that... I like me some good marijana and a morning beer buzz.

Alyssa had all the flooring in my house replaced so she says, haven't been home in 5 days. I sleep wherever clubhouse, my car, Alyssa's house. Gemma's house is too close to mine so I refuse. Chibs has tried to be with me but I can't stand the way he looks at me and toches me... he touches my skin so light talks to me in a sweet tone like if he raises his voice I will kill over.

Only person I confine my time to most the time is Clay. He treats me the same like nothing has changed at all, cause it hasn't. I can still go on runs, I can still function and hold a patch.

"Hey girly" Tig came and sat by me, he has been one of the worst pampering me.

"Little early to be hitting the bottle" he said and I rolled my eyes and took a swig of beer

"Does it look like a give a fuck?" He looked down at the floor

"I'm out" I said grabbing another beer before getting on my bike and taking off

Few minutes later I was at Alyssa's house. I knocked and finished my beer tossing it in her garden wiping my feet on her welcome mat

"Damn RJ early much?" She was still in her robe and I just walked in

"You got any beer?" I asked looking in the fridge finding one

"Make yourself at home why don't you" she said annoyed

"Yeah well your mat said welcome" she shook her head and I plopped on the couch

"How are things at the club?" She asked standing over the sofa

"Shit" I swigged on my beer not really caring

"Fuck RJ! You can't just close up throw it all away and be some beer drinking, don't care whatever as long as I'm lit bullshit person!" She yelled at me and I just ignored her

"Wow I feel hurt" I said finishing off my beer. she looked angry for sure

"You know what I'm gonna find a way to reset you. I have seen it done before you always recover and your never to deep. Your RJ fucking RJ! Okay come on let go get your Jag and burn some rubber that makes anyone feel better!" She threw her street car keys at my face forcing me out the door

I had to admit burning down the road cutting off Alyssa was putting a huge smile on my face.

We went out to the Madsto desert so the sharifs could keep there balls in there pants. If I see one cop out here I will just run his little ass over with my dope ass jaguar.

Doing 110 down the dirt roads and turning doughnuts in the way back I was living it up. Fuck the club fuck killin I don't need that shit this hour I can worry about that later.

After 3 hours I was standing ontop on my car trying to her signal...our cars were both out of gas...

"Guess what alyssa" I said getting down son my car.

"What's that?" She asked looking kicking dirt

"We are officially fucked, right up the ass with a pretty little cactus" she gave me that fuck escorted by her middle finger