This Charming Life [Chibs Telford]

Chapter 23: Looking Glass

RJS POV

I woke up early and was ready for my depressful day by 7:00, put the dogs in the yard for today most likely will be gone all day. I looked like a slob, ripped jean shorts showing off my huge scar... it healed terrible and makes me sick to wear shorts but for today I don't care. I put on one of Chibs white shirts simply because I don't have one and...I love the way he smells...

I got on my bike headed for the hostpital, as I past Gemma's place I saw she had the same plans as me. Her car was gone so she must be at the hostpital or the club, I just speed up finding my way through the difficult morning.

As I past the new sight for Charming Hights it sickened me to see what Hale's brother had done to our little town. I hope he slips on his ego and busts his head open...

Parking my bike I lifted my shades going up to the natal unit, how did I ever want to work here? The air in here is heavy with depression and death...so much death. I looked through the nice glass seeing all the pre-mature babies incased in yet more glass.

I saw Gem and walked in laying my eyes on young Tomas Teller, soft blue eyes and blonde hair yet Tara's face... he will never even know here, just a flat picture incased in glass...

"wow, he looks healthy..." I said quitley and Gemma watched the sleeping baby

"you realize this is all you and me... We have to raise him..." she said still staring down

"I can do it Gemma, you already raised Jax, Opie, Me, Abel. I can raise him for a few months..." she just looked right into my eyes shaking her head

"your gonna kill yourself baby, you keep picking up weights adding them on you back and eventually if you keep it up they will crush you..." I just stared on through I didn't want advise at this point.

"I'm managing fine Gem" I say lowering my gaze

"then where is he? seems ya dropped something" This was once again wearing on me then Dr.Pitts walked in.

" he is strong, should be to go home in a few days." I nodded just not feeling the life

"Hey ah Rikki may I talk to you outside?" Doc asked... um why she all up my case?

"yeah whatever" I walked outside with her

"I am not only a doctor I am also I registered psychologist, and im really amazing at reading people...and the few times I have been around you don't take this the wrong way but you give off incredibly depressfull energy that is quite frightening at how unpredictable you seem..." okay who is this bitch?

"what are you trying to say?" I crossed my arms and looked at her the way I look at discusting food...

"your lethal I can see that the leather just makes it more clear. I'm cool with that you bikers go kill some mexicans or whatever but there is no reason Jax should have to suffer or end his suffering on the inside." I could not tell if she was good or If I needed to rip her throat out...

"What so you think that I will make him angry or what try my best at killing him?" I sassed at her trying her waters

"no directly what I am trying to say is, be easy and make sure you are giving yourself room to breathe cause you look and act like you suffocating" don't know what it is about her but I like her...

I breathed into my hands, ugh Gemma will hate me for this move but what must be done must be...

"so look your a shrink and shit, I can make it worth your while if you would make Jax a personal patient of yours. We are bikers and shit but Jax will get out of Stockton and go on a personal war path through this little town. Now I need insurance you can get in his head and make sure that shit dosen't go down. Now he has 6 months left before he gets out and thats all the time you got, I can make it part of his probation. I need you talking into his ear and re-wiring this shit from his memory, I can double your half anual pay here easy" I said very threatening like