My Life 2023

Jan 10th to Jan 14th

Jan 10th

Let's just say that the morning today was NOT the best. Seriously. . . 
At 7am right after I have sent my manager the departure list she decide to call me and get very much upset over somethings that I do NOT have control over. She ediecided to yell at my over the phone over some stay overs and the fact that I messed up yesterday's situation when I was not even properly trained on a few things. 
I had to remind her that I was more-so threw under the bus when I first came to the job, as I was still learning. 
Later, she then tells me to go and check some rooms and even tells me to do some other things. The only time I raised my voice every yet so slightly was when she wanted me to go up and check some of the rooms and I went, "Okay, I am going" and she ghoes, "Why are you yelling at me?" And I'm not when I raised my voice slightly. 
I blanked out when she continued to yell over the phone. I gave me back PTSD moments from my mother and I just didn't want to deal with it and I think my body went on auto-pilot mode.
After liek the call and I did my shit, I went to the back of the laundry room just to cry a bit. My housekeeper was there and he comforted me while letting me calm down and did what he had to do before he had to go and start cleaning. 

But that happened in the mornign and it wasn't too great.

I was just glad she came later that day close to 2pm, so I didn't have to deal with her at all until the last hour of my shift when she decided to give me a bunch of things to do at the last second which wasn't fair. I had to move some of the tasks to the next following day as I didn't have time to finish them at all.

I later then talk to my Job Coach about the situation and my job coachj agrees that it wasn't right for her to do so just because she is stressed or overwhelmed over her boss when it has nothing to do with me.

I've mentioend to my roommate an audition application that has opened up and that I plan to try it out since I've never done it and I've admire this company for almost a year now. And I've always wanted to be a proper Virtual Streamer to be very honest but I just sometimes don't have the time or energy and not the correct equipment for some. 

Jan 11th

My manager was fine and dandy, acted like NOTHING happened between her and I. Jesus crist.

I wanted to die that day.

I had a friend from Canada and VC with her cause I asked for her help for some ideas for my self-introduction and we did liek the basics that I just needed for now. 

Jan 12th

I was just really tired, and I mean like... I could pass out if I wanted to.

My manager made me do a lot of cleaning and told me that we are training and new manager starting next week and it was kind of last minute. I was like... "I thought you didn't want to be a training site" and she said that they changed up the plans for the trainin where they are just observing the site instead to train and we arn't gonna be the ones to actually teach them anything. I said, "oh, pog." 

Well, now I know why she was stressed and mad at me for no reason was about. 

By the time I got home, all I did was eat some pho and drank some lychee smoothie, talk with my roommate about some things that are poping up this week. Did some of my chores around the house that is quick and easy.
Then fell the fuck asleep while doing laundry around 6pm and I Was watching Alban Knox on the projector.

I woke up at 9pm though just to turn off the projector then woke up again at 11pm realizing about my laundry was still in the dryer and I just said screw it and deal with it on mthe following day.

Jan 13th

OMG very much awake when I came to work. Remember the Pho I metnioend from yesterday? Yeah, I got like espresso and brought it to work since I didn't drink it and jesus christ my ADHD came boppin' so much in the morning. By the time I got home I was still hyper and heck! 

I did not sleep until like 1am, and all I did was read manga and listen to lo-fi music. 

Jan 14th

I woke up really late, like almost 12pm and just ate brunch. All I have done was just clean up my bedroom, made sure my hamster was taken out of the cage.. twice and even did some roommate cleaning and laundry work so no one else has to deal with it. 

I re-watched some animes and some new ones. Re-watched Horimiya and watched Buddy Daddies. Also watched some older animes, which was pog. 

Today really was just a chill day to be honest. I even got to catch up on some left-over works that I never got a chance to finish.