My Life 2023

Present (Jan 9th, 2023)

Ahh yes... Here we are! 

I'd like to say a few things... I'm like not in the right mindset. THat's just all.

I am indeed dealing with a new keyboard upgrade while working on this and even workign on getting a new custom PC going. Very much excited ^^ I've for sure show photos when I do have everything completed.

I've decided to just unpublish certian stories that are on my profile and looked at a few drafted old ones. I MAY possibly try to revive back, but it isn't a garuntee.  
So if your favorite or dumb thing I have was on your list and it's gone? I'm sorry. I just want to start fresh with some.

I've always been thinking and thinking a lot of what to create or what I should make and explore around. My talents arn't the best but I just wanna do things y'know?
I'm not a storyteller, but I want to try.
I just want to prove to people that.. sometimes.. you don't even need to go to college or NEED a stupid class for something you can just learn on your own! 

My own current job proves the point, I don't need to go to college for a degree in Hospitality. Just throw yourself in there and boom you got yourself a job with only customer experiance in retail.

I've been up and down a lot especially in the last year of 2022. 
That year I had a lot of depression, mood swings, acting and just not being myself befcause I haven't done things that I really want to enjoy since I started working at the age of 17 and ONLY been doing the work grind.
Trying to even hangout with my friends is so difficult to the point where I have to base it around my job and it's sometimes not a garuntee that it'll be the same schedule.

I let my frusterations go, no matter who I tell, how many I tell... It will always bother me.

I've had arguments with my BF because I get so frusterated, tired, unsatisfied, stressed with everything because he dosen't understand that I'm constantly alone at home right after work, making time just for him and waiting. All he wants is to keep himself busy. Busy with Taekwando, school, music and other things. I've expressed it to him and he understand but he wont change his schedule. He tells me to wait and wait.
Sometimes I'm tired of waiting. . .

Sorry, I just got emotional because I'm actually just alone atm with no one home and just watching an anime called..
A Lull In The Sea

Well thats enough venting, I'll vent next time about my BF.