My Life 2023

Feb 12th, 2023

Ahh yes, the love in the air for this month, but you know when your boyfriend got no time for ya until after Valentine's day. LMFAO 

To be honest, I know his schedule is packed, I'm not joking. It's whatever, at least he made a day for us just on Saturday morning, haha. I hope. Because... We kept running into my BF's friends while we were just doing our own thing and he keeps trying to talk to them but I wasn't really in the mood because I'm just looking at him like.. "You just saw them this entire week... fucking please." 
Then the final trigger was when his airhead friend who he tutors and the group saw him at the parking lot and we were heading to HMart, they yelled his name and we both looked at them. And you can tell like I'm VERY annoyed because I've already encountered with his classmates and friends already. He realized it and saw that I just ignored them and kept speed walking away because I just don't want any interaction with people right at this moment and I just want to finish my shit and go the fuck home to stay in bed. He said who they were to me and I said, "Ok, and? I just want them to shut the fuck up. I hate encountering people. I just wanna get my shit done and go the fuck home and stay in bed."
He didn't understand what was wrong and asked what was wrong with me when we got back home and I told him... "Are you bleeding out of a vagina? No. Are you suffering with a headache? No. Do you have stomach cramps? No. Do you have a packed schedule and all I want is just the morning with you? Yes. So I don't wanna talk with anyone else. Everyone is a ghost to me." 
On top of that we had to take care of our roommate that locked herself out of the house some how. No really in the mood to talk with people. 

I have been helping a lot of my friends with their romance dramas to be fairly honest and I even been helping one friend in particular who is right now just upset with her Boyfriend and having second gesses if he even loves her. She says she is losing intrest in him and they have been together for a year. On top of that sometimes what he says, he dosen't think what he is saying because she has also a eating disorder which can sometimes swing back n forth to depression or to something else. I'm doing my best to keep her sain and calming her down when she needs it, especially when it's not anything about her BF. 

My roommate also has the same problem with her BF when he dosen't meet her needs. Especially on a day when she broke her finger and she needed to go to Urgent care. You know who took care of her? Me. I became her mom and took care of my baby, especially when I had work. I called out of work to take care of my roommate when she needed it. It was the biggest yikes for her BF. 

The only thing that is also keeping me sain from all of this is possibly just casually reading manga and even watching a lot of VTubers and just trying to hang with certian friends that just wanna play video games. 

I got into playing MMORPGS again, especially Phantasy Star Online 2. I haven't touched MMORPGS since I played Final Fantasy 14 from like 2020, jesus. MMORPGS are like my live saviors when I need to cool tf down from life and get shit away from me. 

Have y'all watched Avatar 2: Way of the Water? Cause I have and dang, the movie was awesome! I watched it during the weekday a week after release because I cannot with people. I really enjoy the uipdated CGI and character development on the kids. c: 

I don't really know what else to say but typical stuff has been happening and just a lot of drama being thrown at me almost on a daily basis. 
And just getting easily annoyed this week but thats because of female monthly reasons. So yeah.