𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬 || ᴍᴜʟᴛɪ

my heart hurts so good(ilysb)

Ship; Jay X Jungwon
Group; ENHYPEN
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Exams period.

Every student's worse nightmare and probably every couple's even worst nightmare. And it's Jungwon's most hated too because it deprives him of most of his cuddles since he has to study in his dorm together with Sunoo.

He's been at the table for the past hours, Sunoo has already turned to his phone, leaving Jungwon alone to think of a solution to the question in front of him. They've been studying for three hours straight, both of them studying by themselves for an hour before they focused a little on past questions and feed off of each other.

Jungwon is tremendously tired, his eyes want to close and his stomach is growling, thinking of getting some ramen but still lazy to get it himself. He'd been hoping Sunoo would get up to get some when he suggested a break but the other instead flopped to the other side of the bed, focusing on anything but food.

He glances at his phone once, seeing it devoid of any reply to all five of his messages to Jay across the various platforms they talk on. He sighs.

"Stop sighing like a pregnant woman and call him," Sunoo says, eyes never leaving his phone. He's been texting Sunghoon nonstop ever since they got each other's contacts.

Jungwon scowls and sends a glare Sunoo's way. "I already called twice in the last three hours. I'm gonna look desperate."

"Aren't you?"

And Jungwon flings his pen till it hits Sunoo's forehead, the older groaning and trying to get back at him but too lazy to move his body, settling back into the sheets, turning his body away from Jungwon's sight.

"Suit yourself, keep being grumpy," Sunoo mutters and Jungwon wants to grab his hair and yank him to the ground.

But he doesn't, instead getting up rather angrily and stomping out of the room. He doesn't even know where he's headed but he needs some fresh air or he's bound to run mad.

Both from the stress of studying and from his boyfriend not answering him that it makes him go furious when he tries to open a bottle of chocolate milk he'd got from the vending machine and it doesn't open as easily as it should.

And maybe Jungwon is just the person that would rather face things head on instead of thinking and mincing his actions but he finds his short walk across campus turning into a walk in the direction of Jay's apartment.

When he reaches the lobby, he sighs. He really hadn't intended on coming there but here he is. He sits on the couch at the waiting space and checks if the messages had arrived and he hadn't seen them. Unfortunately, they haven't even been read. His hands and legs itch to get up and and head to the elevator, press on the button that leads him to the corridor that he knows is a short walk to the left to the door he so badly wants to puts his hand on and turn.

Its so complicated, the way he has to think twice about going over into Jay's arms, all because he knows that Jay likes to read in silence especially with the harshness of the paper he's about to write the following day.

He knows Jay would usually drop everything he's doing and head to Jungwon, burrowing his nose in his hair and inhaling deeply, absolutely loving the scent of Jungwon's shampoo. And he knows the older man would rather be anywhere other than Jungwon's hands.

All this would've been possible if not for this fucking exams season. It pains him so bad, added with the weight and pressure of the studying, it makes him feel so sad that tears prick at his eyes.

He doesn't even hear the sound of heavy boots hitting the floor of the lobby. Nor does he hear the swishing of a leather jacket and he doesn't register the hand that's on his knee until the familiar voice calls out his name.

"Baby?" He hears and immediately, Jungwon's head lifts from his arm and he sits up, his eyes settling on Jay's squatting figure.

He looks so tired. His eyes are droopy and his lips are in a downturn, his eyebrows furrowed.

Jungwon's hands make their way to his face, cupping his cheeks on each side and leaning down, bumping their noses with each other, his eyes fixed on the way Jay's eyes slip close and his hand comes to hold at Jungwon's wrist.

"What are you doing here?" Jay pulls away, getting on his feet once again, a pout on his face, his hands in his pockets.

Jungwon is baffled. "I-I... I just came here to see y-"

"You need to go home Jungwon," Jay snaps and Jungwon feels the telltale buildup of tears in his eyes.

How could Jay, even in his distress, snap at him like that? When all he wanted was to see him.

"What?" He scoffs, unbelieving of his boyfriend's words. His hands that has been stuck where they are suddenly fall to his sides. "I need to leave?"

"Yes, why are you even here? It's literally hours before your next exam," even in his pissed state, Jay still remembers Jungwon's timetable to a T. It would be cute if only Jungwon wasn't boiling with anger.

"Jay I-" Jungwon starts but Jay's phone rings in his jacket and he pulls it out, groaning and rolling his eyes before he accepts the call.

"Please, I'm almost done...for goodness sake I just need an hour! You know what... oh really? Fine then, do whatever," and Jay sighs, rubbing his forehead, smoothing out the wrinkles.

Jungwon softens at that, seeing that Jay was under pressure. Still doesn't justify him raising his voice just the littlest but Jungwon understands a little bit more.

He gets up from his seat, standing in front of Jay, putting his hands back on Jay's cheeks, framing his face.

"Baby, not now, I'm really not-" Jay starts, trying to look anywhere else but in Jungwon's prodding eyes.

When Jungwon gives him the puppy or "I'm about to use your love for me to my advantage," eyes as Sunoo liked to call it, he sighs and pinches the bridge if his nose before he lets himself meet Jungwon's orbs.

They just stand there, Jungwon rubbing his thumb slowly across Jay's features, his nose bumping into Jay's ever so often, until Jay finally let's his hands find their rightful place on Jungwon's waist, rocking their bodies back and forth.

"I missed you," Jungwon whispers, his lips softly pressing against Jay's right cheek. "I missed you so much."

"I missed you too my love," Jay mutters. "I was running crazy in the apartment. I just.. I needed to see or hold you but you weren't there and these people in my study group were on my ass for a solution I forgot to solve.. I... gosh. But to my luck, you were right here."

Jungwon chuckles at the coincidence. They really cannot be kept apart. It's so heartwarming, Jungwon feels molten happiness seeping through the cracks in his heart.

"I thought you didn't want to see me," Jungwon confesses, his lips kissing Jay's other cheek. "You didn't reply my messages."

"I'm so sorry, I was drowned in reading," Jay apologizes, nuzzling into Jungwon's warm hands. "I'm so tired, my eyes and head hurt so bad. I just need you baby. Please."

And Jungwon, really, it's basically what he needs too. So he doesn't speak, content with leaning in and kissing Jay's lips, pressing his face deeper into Jay's as if it would keep them away from each other, loving the weight of Jay's hold on his waist.

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This is how I hope Jay is comforted with the whole issue that's going on currently.

For context, Jay said something during their weverse live and antis took to Twitter and claimed that he said something else. It has to do with the Korean culture btw. And he wrote an apology post which really, he didn't have to since we're all humans and we're bound to make mistakes.

Just cause they're in the spotlight, it doesn't mean they're any different from the average 21 year old. (Well they kinda are since they're talented and rich and- okay not the point I was trying to make lol)

Anyways we love you Jay🧡🫂