TW - depressive thoughts, self harm
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I pull my knees to my chest and hold my tears back as best as I can. The flashbacks of Ranboo being killed, Ghostbur sobbing and Dream's voice saying he's killed michael scratched at my brain. I let out a choked sob. Everything hurts.
I hear the sounds of feeet walking on the cool obsidian. I ignore it, shoving my head further into my knees, cradling myself.
"Y/n," I hear a soft voice and a hand placed on my head. I shove it away immediately and get up.
"Dream. Fuck you, fuck you so so much." I felt the tears roll down my face to my neck leaving it sticky. "I can't believe I loved you, I did so much for you more than I have done for anyone! Dream I-I loved you more than I loved myself." Dream looks down at me, his lips pressed to a frown. He reaches a hand towards my face. I slap it away. I sit back down with my knees to my chest. "You should be saying that to me too," I say my voice hoarse and raspy. "I betrayed you too." My voice cracks as the tears flowed again.
I peek out to see Dream cross legged infront of me. "What did you do?" He says if that soft voice that makes it seem like he never hurt a child, two actually and killed a ghost. But I'm a sucker for it, it's a drug I won't say no to.
I cross my legs placing my elbows on my knees holding my head as the tears flowed. "I was getting closer with Quackity then he kissed me and I let it happen but I didn't even know what to do because I haven't loved Dream! I'm an idiot because I didn't damn now what we were. You were in prison! It's not like I could've come and ask you!" I jumbled out. I meet dream's eyes.
That sparkle in those forest green eyes was missing.
"You cheated on me?" He asks quitely.
"I-I think so." I reply.
"Y/n why?" He sounds so hurt. It makes me mad but it makes me so fucking guilty.
"Were you not listening? I didn't know I'm sorry! Quit acting like you didn't fuck up either." I say as the tears slowed down. Dream sighs and gets up and sits at the other side of the room.
I fucked up. I HATE MYSELF WHY CANT I BE GOOD FOR SOMETHING. I refrain from pulling my hair in frustration, didn't wanna look psycho infront of the roomie. I lie against the wall so all dream could see is my back and bite my fingers hard. I hate myself so much. Why couldn't I be like Puffy or Nikki. Theyre perfect. They have a purpose. I am an excuse of a human being.
VVVVVVVVSHROOOOOOOM
I lift my head up to see 4 potatoes come out of the chute. I'm not hungry. I put my head back down and lay in fetal position. I'm stuck in here
and I deserve it.
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A/N
that was something
I remember when i thought id speedrun an ending but i was wrong
this shits not over anytime soon ;)
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~𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙬𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙙𝙚𝙣~ Dream x Reader
FanfictionY/N, sister in the sbi family and former L'manburg member, works at the new prison holding dream. She only wants one thing from him, then she can go back to home. But what happens if she falls in love with the very man she swore vengance upon... THI...
