It were days since that horrible dream.
I couldn't get it out of my head.It was all I thought about.
My manga started to even be darker then ever.
I got hate mail for making my new song make darker then a goths mind.
I never got out of my room and I rearly sleept.
The pain in the dream was as real as anything...I drew the person I saw mulitple times and got every picture on my wall.Looking at them, made me feel weak and worthless.As if I was a dandelion in a field of magnificent bluebells.
'No one would choose you.No one wants you!You are a just a patethic excause for an angel.Why don't you just die?Why don't you just quit everything?!Can't you see that everyone hates you?You should just die like you were supposed to....You are worthless, patethic, weak, a no one.'
The voice in my head told me.
It was telling the truth..
Keiko would often knock on my door and ask if I was okay.She tried to make me open the door and she even unlocked it but I putted a bunch of stuff so no one can really open them.
I just...Needed to be alone.
My mind was telling me to just quit...I wanted that too...
Someone knocked on my open window befor going in.I looked at it and saw Ciel...He came to me and looked at me with a worried expression.My hair was starting to get black on the ends, I had a lifeless and dull look as if I quited from life long ago.
"Alois...Are you okay..?Everyone is very worried about you.."
"I'm fine.."
"You don't look like that."
"I said that I'm fine now please leave."
"Alois, please-"
"I'M OKAY, CIEL NOW JUST GO!I want to be alone like I always was!"I yellled as tears streamed down my cheeks.My eyes were starting to be a reddish color from the tears.
Ciels eyes widened from a slight shock.He came closer to me and wiped my tears away.His hands were so soft...
"I'm sorry if I upset you.I'm just worried.Please tell me what happened."
"I can't get that guy out of my head.That dream..It feelt as if it trully happened.The voice in my head just tells me to die and how worthless and patethic I trully am...I know it tells the truth though...I should lisent to it more often.."
More tears streamed down my face.
Ciel pulled me into a hug and sighed "You aren't worthless or patethic Alois.Don't lisent to that voice.It just wants you to quit and lose what you have."
"What do I have...?"
"You have me and I will always be there for you."Ciel said with a smile.It was one of thoes smiles that just makes you feel warm as if someone really does care...I guess he does.
I hugged him tightly back and smiled.Few more tears went down my face befor I stopped crying.
I couldn't help myself but kiss him befor burring my head slightly in his chest area.
That smell of Earl Grey and Rose was still there.It was making me feel so comftrebal and cozy...
"Thank you...Ciel."
//Sorry that it's short but I just wanted to do this one shorter as I have a writing block...And it's nagging me =.= Well I hope you enjoyed it anyways.Bye Bye~Admin//
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Fight for the fallen angel
FanfictionA fallen angel falls to earth only to become a kind of famuse mangaka and singer in Japan. In his path to hell, he meets two demons that took forms of humans. He fell in love with both yet he can choose only one... /This is a modern Ciel x Alois x C...
