8 Years [ENGV]

#15

HAEIN

I didn't want to leave Jisoo alone, but I think she needed some space, a moment to think a little. Even though she seemed fine after getting mad at me, I thought it was best to leave her alone, so I went back to my apartment and packed some clothes in a suitcase for the weekends — I didn't know if Jisoo wanted me to stay there all the time.

I looked around my apartment, thinking about what I would do with it if things with Jisoo got serious. Maybe Haejoon would like to live there, after all, he was thinking about moving — but it wasn't something to be resolved urgently.

I received a message from Bogum asking if I was free to receive him — taking me away from thoughts about the future —, and with the positive answer, it wasn't long before he showed up at my door holding a box with six small bottles of beer.

Bogum and I became friends when he almost signed with FNC, we were young, with the same goals. He ended up going to another company, but we kept in touch and our friendship continued.

"When can I meet your heiress?" He asked, as we sat on the balcony — on the floor, actually —, drinking the beer he brought.

"I don't know. Jisoo introduced her to her BlackPink friends, but I don't know if it's allowed for you at the moment." He laughed, not taking it the wrong way.

"You still do everything she tells you to do." It was an affirmative. Bogum shook her head, raising the bottle to her mouth. "Have you guys talked about your relationship yet?" I sighed. I intended to talk to her after the baby shower, but she seemed very stressed and wasn't in the mood for a conversation about our relationship and what we really were to each other.

"We haven't had time yet." I answered vaguely, without looking at him, but I noticed that he looked at me with a slight disdain. "I think her priority and mine is to have Haeji first. We can talk about our relationship later." I drank my beer, still without looking at him.

"What do you intend to do?" He asked, looking at me. "Even without knowing what she will have to say, what do you want to say to her?" I took another sip of beer and took a deep breath, looking at the wall.

"That I still love her." I said, honestly, I could see Bogum smiling. "Having Haeji back is a new chance. I want to start over with her, have our family back. Have more children..."

"Wow!" He interrupted me. "Calm down. It was by having a child with her that all this mess started." I looked at him irritably, he had an amused look. One thing about Bogum is that he didn't know the right time to make a joke. But I wasn't going to start a fight, I knew that what he said wasn't intentional to irritate me, just an attempt to lighten the mood. "Do you think she thinks the same as you?" I denied it and sighed.

"I don't know... I hope so." I drank again and he did the same.

"Just be careful. This situation is delicate, and you will have Haeji back. She doesn't deserve to suffer because of the confusion that is your minds."

"Yes, I know... And I'm sure Jisoo will think about what's best for both of us and for Haeji. That's what parents should do, right?" He nodded, finishing his drink, then laughed.

"I remember how you used to talk about her." He said, looking at the sky — not so starry — above us and shaking the beer in his hand.

"She was the first and only woman I truly loved. Even though I had another girlfriend after her, I couldn't forget her or erase the love I felt for her."

Jisoo and I had already spent a good amount of time together, and I was starting to enjoy her company. She had a unique glow and energy, and being around her made me feel good and awakened a side of me that no one had ever seen before. A few days ago, whenever we had a scene together, my hands would start to shake slightly and an uneasiness would arise inside me, something similar to what I felt when I first fell in love.