She's Back

Chapter 2

Sawyer's POV 

                     When I got the phone call that my grandmother passed away peacefully in her sleep, I was relived but completely heart broken.

Heartbroken because I wasn't there for my nonno but relived because she didn't suffer.

Today is the day that I must face my past. Today is the day I have to lay my nonna to rest.

Oh lord I have to tell Zander, his poor little heart

"MOMMY!! Look look I made this for you!!!" my beautiful little miracle came running into the room

"Oh goodness, that must be put on the fridge mio figlio! Here baby lets go put it up then I need to have a talk with you, okay?" I say looking into his beautiful big green eyes

He quickly nods his head, grabbing my hand and dragging me to the kitchen. We find a magnet and put it up

"Babyboy, we are going to need to start an art wall, we are running out of room up here." I say tickling him

Oh how I can't get enough of his laugh and smile. His smile reminds me of him.

'No, we can't go down that rabbit hole yet.'

"Okay amore, make sure you have your listening ears on. We are going to mommies' home, nonno is very excited to see you and you can even show him you're cooking and drawing skills but nonna is no lover here with us. She went to heaven last night, okay" I say to his softly

"But why did she leave? I wanted to cook with her, show her that I'm getting better at using the knife" his eyes gloss over and his lips starts to tremble

I immediately pull his into a hug "Oh my sweet boy, I'm so sorry but it was her time to leave. I don't know why but it was. Everything happens for a reason, okay. But there also something else I want to tell you. You remember in your necklace you have pictures in there?" I ask him

He slowly nods his head confused "Yeah you told me, one side is baby mommy and the other is baby daddy!"

I smile at him "Yeah, baby. In my necklace it's a newer picture of me and daddy, do you want to see?" His smile gets so big

"YES yes yes!!" his eye have this twinkle in him that reminds me of his dad so much I almost start crying

I show him my necklace one side is of Onyx and I and the other is Xander as a baby

"Momma I has his eyes, wow" he looks so amazed and I love it

"Yeah, baby you do and you are named after his uncle 'Alexzander Lain' You might even get to meet his uncle. But baby you will probably see your daddy and he doesn't know about you, okay?"

'How do I explain to a 4 year old that his dads mother hated me and forced me to leave and never see Onyx again'

"Does he not love me, mommy? Did I do something?" tears start to spill out of his eyes

"You didn't do anything wrong baby; daddies mommy doesn't like your mommy very much and made me leave without telling him. None of this is your fault and never will be" I say to him sternly wiping off his tears

He still looks confused but who wouldn't be. "Okay no more sad talk, lets pack so we can go see nonno!" I pick him up and we go get the suitcases and start packing

      Couple hours later.

                       I got everything into the car and "Shit" I say a little too loudly

"Mommy, JARRRRR" Zander yells from the garage giggling

"Aw man, I'm sorry amore I didn't mean to say that out loud" I say smiling at his

"Alright my little nugget lets get loaded up and get on the road" He quickly gets into his car seat and we are off.

Now I just have 3 hours to think of how I'm going to talk to Onyx.

Let the fun begin. Hint the sarcasm