Feel Everything.

Comfortable.

Happiness is a scary emotion...a scary feeling.
Warm and tender, it gives comfort where you felt discomfort.
You're pleased!
Nothing hurts like the way it did yesterday.
All the nimbus clouds in your head have cleared and it's all rainbows and blooming flowers.
All the smiles are real, all the words have meaning, all the conversations aren't surfaced... everything is real!
Realer than what's on the TV screen.
A garden is being taken care of for you in your chest.
You can feel everything better now there's no heavy feeling, the world isn't on your shoulders someone else will feel it today but you?
You're feeling better than you felt yesterday cause you can now feel God...you can now feel love.
With happiness comes a lot.
A lot to learn, a lot to feel....a lot to lose.
You don't want the feeling to end but it does.
You self sabotage cause sadness is real.
Realer than what's on the TV screen.
Grief,
       Fear,
              Agony,
                       Sadness,
                              Distress.

All words from the english language dictionary.
All that mean the same thing.
PAIN.
You put yourself back in a state of alarm cause feeling comfortable felt uncomfortable.
Sadness is a comfortable feeling.
There's not much to lose.
They're no expectations cause everyone can see you're unreliable.
You're lazy cause it hurts.
What you feel inside hurts and you can feel it in every type of way and that sucks.
All those clear skies are gone and you can hear the thunder again, you can hear all those voices doubting you, you're doubting yourself cause all those voices are you.
Everything doesn't make sense but it's okay cause you've felt it before you've stayed in this feeling longer than you have when you were happy.
There's a cold wind in your chest that came to huff and Puff and blow all your flowers away.
All that rich soil that was kept by God is going dry cause you shut your heart out to him too cause you feel like "no one understands you."
Clearly no one will cause you allow no one to know you.
To understand you is a difficult task cause you barely know yourself.
You don't feel love anymore.
Everything is back to where it all was.
You look at yourself in the mirror and you hate the person looking back at you.
You're now self loathing.
Cause you're comfortable.
You're cold again.
Everything doesn't make sense again.
And you're back laying on your bed.
Feeling how you felt yesterday.