In Love With My Gay Best Friend

My Best Friend

"I don't care if he's gay, in fact I'll always love him even more. But the whole time he didn't bother to tell me... I fell deeper and deeper in love with him."

Those words always echo in my head. 

I don't hate him, I hate the fact he kept it from me. 

I don't care what others think of me. And no, I'm not a goddamn homophobe. I can't hate gay people, they are just too damn fun. 

I'm sorry if you think I don't have the right to be mad, just because he has the "get away card" of being who he is. 

You think it's fair for me? It's just that I've been in love with this guy for so long... I don't want him to change, but it just sucks that I'm the only one that gets heartbroken. 

Ryan, no matter what happens... I will always be there for you. I know for a fact that you aren't becoming straight over night even if I tell you I love you. 

Nothing will change the way I see you, or the memories we hold. 

I'll be there at your wedding. I'll be there for your future child. I'll be your child's Godmother. 

Just don't forget about me.

~Ava