the end (boyxboy) (on hold)

tuesday

I awoke, feeling a hand squeezing my neck. Tightly, might I add. I gasped for air but none came. I saw henrys horrid face hovering above mine.

"I told you!" He whisper yelled.

I started swinging my hand to the side, in hopes that Kevin was near me and I was in the bed. Well. At least I was in the bed.but Kevin wasn't here.

   I'm gonna die. This is the day it ends. The day it all ends. I'm not ready for that. Not now. I've changed my mind. But its too late.

   I felt a hard sting on my cheek and sat up, gasping for air, at the same time crying and holding my neck. It took my mind a while to process what was going on. Kevin sat across from me with a look of worry in his eyes. I saw his lips moving but all I could hear was a ringing and I could only feel my body shaking.

   My senses soon came back and I herd kevin repeatedly saying my name. I glanced up at him and immediately wrapped my arms around him.

"I don't wanna go. I don't wanna die." I repeated as I sobbed into his chest. His big warm hands stroked my hair. I slowly stopped sobbing and crying. He pulled me away from his chest and wiped the tears from my face. I leaned my head against his left hand and closed my eyes.

   I felt a soft pair of angelic lips against mine.

"Don't worry. Your not going to die. It was just a nightmare.." He reassured me.

   I looked into his eyes. I don't normally like showing my emotions but when I'm around kevin, I feel like I can be myself. But I can't get to attached.

You know he'll just leave you, you fat ugly ass.

The voice in my head reminded me. I whimpered and placed a hand over the one on my cheek and looked into Kevin's eyes.

"Promise you won't leave me?" I asked shamelessly.

   He nodded and kissed me once more. We pulled apart as the door opened, revealing henry. I let out a whimper and tightly squeezed Kevin's hand. I cowered behind him and his there, not daring to look up.

"Your tutor will be here shortly. Please get ready" said henry before I herd the door to the room close.

Kevin turned, looking at me.

"What was that?" He asked.

I just stood up and walked over to the restroom, but making sure henry wasn't there of course. I brushed my teath then rinsed my mouth before going back to the room.

"Here wear this." kevin said with an outstretched hand that held onto a T-shirt and boxers.

   I took the clothes and changed into it as kevin left to the restroom. I locked the room door, making sure henry wouldn't enter and try anything. I herd the knob turn and my heart stopped, I stared at the door knob.

"Phoenix? Why'd you lock the door?" I herd Kevin's voice. I sighed in relief and opened the door.

"I didn't want anyone coming in while I changed." I lied as I turned around and sat glanced at myself in the rectangular shaped, vertical mirror. The shirt kevin let me borrow went up to my mid thigh and the plaid boxers peeked out the end of it.

   I turned back to kevin and sighed.

"Let's go shall we?" I asked and he nodded.

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Read? Please..
Sorry you guys I have finals this week and my best friend is coming back on the 9th! Have any of you guys ever had a major crush on someone to the point where you didn't want to part ways? You worried about what they thought about you, how they saw you.. I do! And the guy said he liked me but he also likes some other girl. I mean, its fine, its his emotions I can't control that. I just wish he felt the same way I do. I think I'm likeing him more than I should and its scaring me. I don't know how badly I'll end up hurt, and I'm afraid for that time to come.