_JAKEHOON ONESHOTS.

faded.

Jaeyun feels faded, absolutely and completely faded, yet no ounce of alcohol has grazed his lips, no puff of smoke has overheated his mouth and lungs, all that's cruising through his body is a sensation of numbness and dread.

He's high on someone, something that isn't even in his presence right now, a feeling that's hanging onto him like a useless weight. It was filling his mind with nothing but a sort of daze that kept him zoning in and out as he nursed his can of rose lemonade as music blasted through every speaker in the house. Jaeyun was tucked in a corner, far away from anyone and anything as he spun the sparkling pink liquid in a lazy motion.

He sighed heavily, debating whether or not to get up from his seat and find some of his friends and try to have some fun, but every inch of his body was screaming at him to stay and wait. For what? He doesn't know either.

Jaeyun checked his phone again, a bunch of untapped notifications welcoming him, yet none of them were the ones he wanted or craved to see.

The music's bass increased, and a group of cheers followed from the living room where the makeshift dance floor and DJ Booth were located. He wasn't keen on loud noises, yet he couldn't find it in himself and move to a different spot - he was comfortable on his makeshift chair that looked like one of those box-type furniture pieces from Ikea, no people around him as he sipped away on his lemonade.

The blonde didn't want to drink tonight, especially when he knows he'll be probably walking home because all of his friends are definitely wasted on the second floor, probably participating in a game of beer pong or some other drinking game Jaeyun never seemed to fully grasp.

Taking another sip, the male couldn't help but sigh. It was nearing 2 AM, meaning he had been here for around two hours just wasting his time away.

One might think "why did you come here if you don't even want to be here?" Well, the answer was pretty simple and all too complicated at the same time.

Jaeyun knew damn well when he was getting dressed that he only wanted to be there because he knew Sunghoon would be there. Silly, he knows. Why couldn't he just enjoy his time and not think about his boyfriend who he is supposed to be upset with, he could mingle with his friends and maybe even knock back a few drinks to let loose, even if the cocktails were still too bitter for his taste buds.

But he couldn't.

Sunghoon was fully aware that Jaeyun would be at this party. He knew the blonde had trouble holding his alcohol and was well informed how Jaeyun gets incredibly clingy and reliant on the people he goes with (more than often times it being Park Sunghoon himself because the raven would burn down the house if someone dared to touch his boyfriend in that state).

And he was not here.

He wasn't here holding Jaeyun's hand as the two stayed in a corner observing everyone, he wasn't here keeping his cup safe as he went to pee, he wasn't here keeping an eye on him and he definitely wasn't here dancing with Jaeyun. And that alone was breaking his heart.

They had an argument a couple of days ago which ended with Jaeyun storming out of the male's apartment with glassy eyes and the muffins he made for his boyfriend laying somewhere on the floor.

It was one of the most serious arguments they've had, resulting in both of them tearing up from pure frustration . Something like that happening had never crossed Jaeyun's mind when he walked into the raven's apartment with a huge smile.

A week before.

Jaeyun knocked gently at the front door of Sunghoon's family home, fresh-baked muffins snug in a cute box he had bought out in the city. The lemon aroma could be felt even from outside of the box and the blonde was beyond excited to give them to his boyfriend.