I Needed You (It's Not Fair)

just...leave me alone

I called again and again and again until finally someone picked up.

"This contact is no longer available, the user has either changed numbers or blocked you, for more information press 1"

"......I-i..."

It was about 3 hours later I was still laying on the floor with no emotion staring at the dial screen on my phone. thoughts running through my head, and my stress kept bottling up and I let it. My door slowly started opening with a creak making me flinch and look up. I looked at the door to see Zean looking at me with his eyebrows raised. 

"Soooooo, you call him?"

I stared at him before my eyes became blurry again and looked away not wanting to look at his scary face. 

"please go away..."

"TCH!, NO. DID YOU CALL HIM?! YES OR NO!?"

I twitched and put my hands over my head covering my ears. "y-yes.." I managed to say. I looked down and stared at the floor. I heard his stomps as he walked over to me grabbing the phone out of my hands managing to squeeze my fingers tightly and letting go, taking the phone with him. 

He walked to the door and looked at me then glanced at my neck, staring at my bruises. His expression went blank and he walked out, closing my door. 

I stared at the door and kneeled on my knees and my body shook. It was very cold. I didn't seem to notice earlier since I was so focused on Conner. since this is my room i thought I would need to start unboxing my blankets and clothes and hangers. I looked at one of my packed boxes, it had my pillows and blankets and some clothes in it. I got up and walked over picking up the box that was on top of it and setting down gently not making any sound in the process... I opened the box taking out my big Pink and Purple comforter blanket smiling and wrapped it around my freezing body. 

"fuuuuuuckkk....." I muffled in the soft cozy blanket. "I misssssseddddd youuuu~" I groaned. I looked in the box again searching for my pillow and found it. I took it out fluffing it up and laying it on the floor gently. I glanced in the box again seeing my fuzzy furry friend. I pulled out my teddy bear that had a Band aid eye patch on his face and hugged it tightly getting emotional again. Feeling weak and useless again. Feeling abandoned. Feeling hopeless. Letting tears stream down my eyes and letting my head hit the pillow.

He layed there.....

just wanting to feel loved and cared for.

wanting someone to hold him in there arms whispering it's going to be ok. 

but of course that's way to much to ask for. 

"heheheh.... IM OK IM FINE" 

"HE LOVES ME STILL HE JUST... GOT A NEW NUMBER IS ALL!!!" I screamed not caring of how loud I was.  I sat up and leaned my head on the wall and started sobbing roughly. "HE LOVES- COUGH"MEE-EE- COUGH  "-EE AHHHH" my cry became a loud scream. 

I slammed my head against the wall HARD making me feel find of dizzy and feel a drip of blood sliding down my face before sliding down against the wall crying, laying on the floor. I herd the door slam open and saw Zean walk in angrily before stopping in front of the mess. He froze and he stared at Que with a shocked and stunned look. 

"h-hee.. loves....- *Sob* meee-....." 

Zean looked at the bloody head octoling in-front of him. He shook his head and sighed leaning down to rub his bloody forehead gently. 

"No he doesn't"

I looked up at him and grinded  my teeth making me taste my salty tears dripping into my mouth. "YES..HE.." I lifted my fist up and punched his stomach "DOES!!" I kept punching him in the stomach but he didn't move an inch, in fact his facial expression didn't either. He continued rubbing my forehead. I stopped punching him and tried to remove his hand from my head but every time I took it off he just put it back. WHATS WRONG WITH THIS GUY?? 

" My theory is he made you move here to make friends, but really he just wanted to get rid of you maybe because he's not gay...? Or he lost interest, or has someone else in mind... heh- maybe he blocked you making it an official breakup without making you upset." Zean smirked at me and I looked up at him with a surprised look. I paused and thought... WHAT IF HES RIGHT...?

My breathing became heavy and I started crying uncontrollably. "SH-SHUT UP...NO!! YOUR WRONG!" Zean scoffed and stoped rubbing my head to get up. "PFFFCHT- yeah.... Don't come crying to me when you find out..." he walked over to one of my boxes. "Soooo are you gonna keep your shit in boxes?" He opened one of them the was labeled clothes. 

"HEY, s-STOP IT... DONT TOUCH MY SHIT!" I yelled at the taller boy as I shoved the box away from him. I gasped when I felt the back of the collar of my shirt getting yanked and my back being slammed to the wall. "So... apologies. Or I'll dislocate your arms."

I gasped and winced to his voice.