(Draken x reader)Love and war

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i would just like to say ...... my bad yall i just did not have the motivation to finish this 😃.... but im in a better place now😌 .... i would like to think my writing style has developed hopefully and i can just try to continue with this story. BUT the thing is i just started writing this with no plan but a rough idea of how i wanted things to play out and now ive forgot it lmao but i'll just go with the flow n see if it's alr .... just didnt want to abandon it n leave yall hanging coz I HATE THAT.

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I woke up up to Draken shaking me gently, as if i would break under his touch. I stared up at the building i haven't seen for so long .... it was only 2 weeks but it felt like months passed. I get out of the car and Draken hastily comes to my side resting his hand on my lower back as we walk into the empty building. Jun comes running from the desk a worried look painted on his face, which quickly turns to a look of sympathy once he gets close enough to see me properly. "y/n... I'm sorry." it's not your fault, it's mine. I want to tell him but if i open my mouth i still won't be able to tell him, i'm trying my best not to break down right now. So instead i look away, down at the floor in shame. "She's been through a lot, let's just give her some time yeah?" he mumbles reassuringly at the boy, he nods un understanding. 

as i wait out the elevator ride to get to the penthouse, we enter Draken's place. "Do you mind if i use, your shower right now, i'm filthy." i ask looking down at the floor, then turning to Draken. He has a look of sympathy on his face as if he blames himself for everything. "Y/n i brought you here so you're not alone, feel free to use and do whatever you like until your ready to go home, okay?" Suddenly my emotions release in a way i don't want them to.

 "Could you all stop fucking looking at me like that?!! i hate it, i'm not a fucking crying child you found on the street so please just fucking stop!!" i scream before running up the stairs and into the bathroom where i've caught Draken on countless occasions. I turn on the shower before taking off my tattered clothes and throwing them in the trash, i look at myself in the mirror and my heart clenches. I look completely unrecognizable and disgusting. i snap my head away from the mirror before i start crying, and get in the shower. The water's so hot, but i don't want to turn it down, i want to wash all of these marks off of me, i want to wash all of this filth off of me, i want to wash away the past two weeks like none of it happened. i wash my body like crazy, not even softening when i reach the bruised parts. 

I hop out of the shower, and look around. As if he knew i would be here today, he placed a bag with underwear and a bra on the sink. His thoughtfulness reminded me of how i spoke to him before getting in the shower, i become wracked with guilt as i slip them on.. As if he could hear me thinking about him, i hear his presence outside of the door. "I didn't get a chance to get you clothes coz i didnt know what you liked those have been sitting there for about a week. I figured i would give you some of mine for now." he says attentively. I open the door, not caring that i'm in my underwear to see a panicking Draken, who doesn't know where to look. "i'm sorry i spoke to you like that, i-" tears start streaming down my face, i'd been doing a good job of holding them back before now, i didnt want to cry again. "I just don't like feeling so weak." i sobbed looking down at the floor.

Draken pulled me into one of his familiar hugs, a gesture i've become extremely comforted by these past couple of months. i allow myself to unburden my tears here, i can't, won't and don't want to cry like this again. "I don't care, y/n. treat me however you want, do whatever you need to do to make yourself feel okay again, that's all i want for you." he says soothingly. I nod into his chest, coz' i can't manage to form a sentence right now.