Giyuu angst

The news

Tomioka's pov:

Me and Kyojuro went to the meeting and went to our usual places and started talking about things.

Then Mitsuri and Himejima joined our conversation. I didn't really talk but I only stared at Kyojuro. He was so pretty I love this man so so much I would lose my shit if he would die.

Time skip

After Oyakata-sama assigned Kyojuro a mission with Tanjiro Zenitsu and Inosuke it felt kinda weird but I shrugged it out of my mind.

After the meeting I went to Kyojuro to give him a kiss before he goes. I went on my tiptoes and gave him a kiss on his lips that lasted about 3 seconds. "Don't die." I said to him and he nodded and went to his mission.

"OOOOOOOOOO WAIT YALL ARE TOGHETER WAIT WHATTTT" Said Tengen coming from behind the bushes with all the hashiras behind him. I blushed deeply. "Umm uh we uh." I couldn't finish my sentence because I don't know what to say they just saw us and it's emmbarassing. "Ooo Tomioka has a little boyfriend I see hehe" Said Shinobu laughing a bit.

"KYAAAAA IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU TOMIOKA-SAN"
Said Kanroji while hugging me tightly.

Iguro was displeased and angry.

Gyomei told that he is happy that I found love.

Muichiro... well is muichiro.

Sanemi was a bit angry. Actually he looked like he wanted to grab my throat and rip my vocal cords out.

Time skip

They dragged me along to a restaurant to celebrate I guess?
It felt nice but I was worried about Kyojuro and the boys.

I was a bit drunk because Tengen kept making me drink sake but I felt a bit relived knowing that they actually care about me and don't judge my every move. I felt tears running down my face. "Yooo are you ok man?" Tengen said giving me a hug.

"Thank you..." I said crying in his shoulder I could feel the others smiling and Mitsuri went and also gave me a hug it felt nice knowing that there are people that look up to me and care about my feelings.

Time skip

Tengen took me home and asked if he could spend the night here because his estate is far away. Ofcourse I allowed him to stay.

He went into the guest room and I went into my room I couldn't stop thinking about him.
I dreamed about him. How we were in a field of flowers running happily then accidentally slipping and falling down with Kyojuro on top of me. I blushed until he gave me a kiss on my lips.

Its felt so good. I love this man so much I don't know what I'll do if he died.

"I love you so much Kyojuro"

Time skip

Before he knew it it was already 9 am

The birds were chirping and the bees were going around his garden full of flowers. Tomioka woke up feeling happy that he would see Kyojuro today he couldn't wait.

He got out of bed smelling what felt like simmered salmon. He thought that Kyojuro was home but it was Tengen who did that. He sat at the table and ate in silence with Tengen then they went out for a walk just so they could talk more.

Tengen never got the chance to communicate with Tomioka so this was exciting for him. They noticed 3 crows coming their way.

It was Tomioka's Tengen's and Kyojuro's.

They came a bit closer to them and Tomioka pick his crow up because it was getting old.

"Rengoku Kyojuro dead after encountering upper moon 3..." Said Kanzaburo, Tomioka's crow.

Tomioka pov: My heart sank. I couldn't protect him either. I feel so worthless right now. What do i do now. I want to be with him. To feel his warmth. To hug and shower him with affection. I feel to my knees and I felt my eyes start to water.

Tengen was beside me. But I couldn't hear him. I didn't hear anything. It was just pure screams of my childhood friend, my sister and Kyojuro telling me how weak and useless I am. I cried. And cried. And cried. I didn't know what to do. I wanted to kill my self. I just wanted to dissappear.

Tengen ran up to me. Knowing that we we're in a relationship he gave me a thight hug. I cried in his shoulder. He listened to me and didn't judge me. I felt a bit safer but still . I told him everything. From my past to this current situation how my mental health has been. He started crying telling me how much i matter.

I cried harder and harder. Everytime i thought of Kyojuro i would cry. 

I noticed that i was getting a really bad headache and i started to black out. I slowly fell unconscious on Tengens shoulder.

Time skip.

I woke up in tears and sweat. I tought it was all over and it was just a nightmare.
Its wasn't .

I stayed in bed and drank pill after pill waiting for the headaches to go away.

I cried and cried and cried. Why am i like this. Why do i always survive. Im usless. I should die. I dont want to live anymore.

I drank 7 more pills feeling as the headache was getting worse and worse everytime.

I decided to go to Shinobu since she is a doctor i tought she could help me.

Time skip.

As i was walking to her estate i began to feel really dizzy. My legs we're shaking and my whole body was quivering. I was sweating and each step was harder to take.

I started seeing black but i ealked and walked. I bumped into someone by accident and i instantly said im sorry. They looked at me weird and began spating hateful comments to me.

It was the one and only Shinazugawa Sanemi.

I turned around and kept walking but he grabbed me and turned me to face him.

He had his hand wrapped around my neck against a tree.

I couldn't breath.

I noticed a warm liquid pouring down my head.

Its was blood.

I yelped and pleaded him to let me go. Eventually i passed out with the last thing seeing was Tengen running to me and Sanemi.

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Hiii guys im very sorry. For everything. Ive been struggling with upcoming tests and stuff and i dont have time for this but here i am i hope you like this chapter it was kinda rushed so im sorry for the gramatical mistakes i hope all of you have a great day/night TAKE CAREE!!!

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