Insane. The whole family was insane. I stared at the king in disbelief. The king looked at the maid again and said something about taking me back to my room. I wasn't to sure, I was mostly in my head at that point.
"Welcome to the family."
*flashback*
"Mom, do I have a dad?" My mom was taken aback when her 6-year-old asked a profound question out of the blue.
"Everyone does." She said flatly. Her sharp tone told me it was a sensitive subject and she didn't want to discuss it further.
Of course. At the ripe age of six, I didn't care and only wanted answers to the millions of questions I had.
"Where is mine?"
"Dead."she said it so fast I almost did not catch it. I felt like she had just slapped me.
....
" who is this, mom?"
It's Christmas and my mom was in the presence of a tall man. He was human.
She brought a human home?
"Your step dad, we're getting married." The man seemed compelled to be here and he gave me an uneasy grin.
It seemed as if he had been forced into this house against his will.
He awkwardly wrapped his arm around my mothers waist. "Nice to meet you, I met your sister yesterday, I think we all will get along just fine."
The man made a lazy attempt to give me a friendly smile.
He sounded so fake and phony. As if he was told to act like this.
Weirdo. If I was a little older than 11, I would've questioned them more, but I could not have been bothered at the time.
"Welcome to the family." I told him in a fake friendly voice and went into my room quietly.
*end of flashback*
It was nice. I didn't even realize how nice it was, to have a family, a real one. Like everything else in life, I took it for granted. As I sit on the bed as the maid made her leave. A tear falls down my cheek.
I shiver, suddenly noticing how cold the room felt.
As usual, I was alone. Being alone became..............no, had already become my usual. It WAS normal. So why did I feel so lonely? Why did I feel so abandoned?
It suddenly hit me that I was a orphan. Unclaimed. Unwanted. Whatever you would call it, I no longer belonged somewhere.
I felt it all hit me at once. My emotions, my despair, my hatred.............my self hatred,
My Survivors guilt.
My family was gone physically, but I was gone mentally. In one way or another, we were all dead.
Before I had never allowed myself to check in with my emotions. Because normally I was numb.
There was nothing worth feeling.
It was excruciating. I felt suffocated. As I had a thousand of bricks on my chest. I put my hand over my heart, trying to see what was wrong with my body.
Soon I realized that I wasn't able to breathe through my nose so I had
to resort to my mouth.
There's a knock at the door. I could smell him.
"Leave! I'm really not in the mood and I'm naked!" I spat out the first thing that popped into my head.
"Something is wrong, our bond is giving me a headache! Are you sick or something?" I just scoff at the narcissist on the other side of the door. I sigh and put my heads behind my head, attempting to control my breathing.
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Eyes As Dark As A Night
Hombres Lobo"I thought he was the crazy one" "If he was crazy, she was the definition of insane." ....... "Are you saying you don't love me" Sky said sounding completely broken. She was gonna break him first. "God damnit Sky...
