Undeniable

his own

The dance is itching it's way closer and closer. While Enid's been enjoying her time looking at sparkly and might i add REALLY colourful dresses, i've been writing in my journal about some things i'd like to add in my novel. Xavier brought up an idea the other day at our art lessons. I should carry around a journal and if i suddenly get an idea of something i'd like to add, i write it in the journal so i wouldn't forget. Like i would ever forget something yet i still listened to him. These art lessons have been becoming more frequent. Not that i'm complaining. I seem to crave his company more than ever now. Which is a terrible thing. I, Wednesday Addams should love being alone. But when it comes to him, i don't want to be alone. I actually like having him around me. It seems that there's really only two people i enjoy being around in this school. Enid and Xavier. Enid has pushed me out of my comfort zone multiple times but only for my best interest and Xavier has been...well he's been an exciting part of my day that i look forward to. He brings emotion out of me. He makes me feel like i might not actually want to end up alone in this world after all. Yes. You're probably thinking, "Oh Wednesday, you like him!" Yes. Yes i do. Only a fool wouldn't admit to things that are so clearly obvious. I have feelings for him. But i plan to keep it to myself. No one needs to know about my weakness. Especially with this stalker roaming around. I wouldn't want to put Xavier in danger. As i enter the room, i find Enid, Ajax and Xavier there. Enid is standing up, talking about something that i seemed to interrupt, Ajax had his body turned towards her, showing that he'd been paying attention up until i walked in and as usual Xavier is just looking straight ahead at me. Nothing unusual.
"What's going on?" Id normally not care but i'm starting to care now.
"Oh nothing just talking about last minute dance arrangements, like who's picking up who where."
"Shouldn't the person you're going with be picking you up?" Why would Ajax be picking me up and why Xavier be picking Enid up. I know i'm not the most cooperative with dates and dances but i know at the very least that the person you're going with should be the one picking you up.
"Yes yes that's what Enid meant." Ajax says. So why would they be discussing that? Enid laughs but i know her by now. That's not the usual bubbly ear scratching laugh she has. It sounds as if i walked in on something i wasn't supposed to hear. How intriguing. I sliced my eyes away from Enid to Xavier only to be met with a stare. The tension between us hasn't died down. If anything it's gotten stronger. His gaze right now makes me burn everywhere.
"Uh Enid and i gotta go now, we're going to fetch something that she left in class." Ajax says with a slight smile before dragging Enid, who just winks at me. Before i could even look back at Xavier he answers the question that was just in my mind.
"They we're wondering when i was going to ask you out on a date." He says. His eyes fixed on mine. Not moving at all. As if he's waiting for my reaction.
"That's odd." I was lying. Knowing Enid and her romance obsession i guessed she'd push Xavier to ask me out.
"Yeah it is." My heart sinks without permission. Did he not want to ask me out at all? Why am i so upset over this? Is asking me out really that odd?
"Yes." Just before i could walk out again, being uncomfortable with the atmosphere he opens his mouth to say something.
"Yeah, when i ask you out i want it to go according to my own plan. Not someone else's."
He walks past me and out of the room. Leaving me to take in what he just said. When he asks me? His own plan?

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have i been gone for long?