Undeniable

My everything

Wednesday's POV:

Ever since the kiss between Xavier and i, i felt my heart opening more toward him. I feel like telling him every little thing on my mind. Like how i didn't know if i could control myself and not kiss him in class today. Who would've ever thought that the deepest thought on Wednesdays Addams's mind would be kissing Xavier Thorpe. For a moment my heart aches. I forget that i had done unforgivable things to him. I didn't believe him when he said he wasn't the Hyde. I snooped around his private stuff and had him thrown in jail. All for my boyfriend to come out as the Hyde. I feel goosebumps adorn my arms. Tyler Galpin. They boy who i had assumed was on side. They boy i let it. Funnily enough, my feelings for Xavier cannot compare to the feelings i held for Tyler. I feel myself to be more indulged in my feelings for Xavier. Nevertheless, i owe him a proper apology. Class is over and i pick up my books and turn around to Xavier.
"I would like to talk to you." I look at his eyes. Hoping he can feel the severity and urgency of my matter. Actually i didn't think it to be all that severe and urgent until i thought about it today. I had hurt someone that i had come to...like? so much? Like...isn't appropriate but i'm not sure of how deep my feelings are as yet so i wouldn't want to label them.
"You can talk to me anytime Wednesday." He says quietly but i can hear. My name on his lips sounds...beautiful. Like each letter of my name is said with adoration and love.
"N-Now?" Did i just stutter? Oh my god.
"I would prefer that." Xavier smiles. I guess we were too caught up in each other to realise that everyone left already for recess. I make my way to the door but halt.
"Walk with me Xavier." I wanted him by my side. I can see the subtle shock in his eyes. Almost as if he expected me to disappear from his sight. I want to be near him. I want him to look at me. The way he looks at me makes me feel good.
"Okay." It's a short response but his smile makes up for the rest of his unspoken words.
We walk together until i see a bench.
"Sit there." I say. He doesn't waste time and immediately sits down. Had i always had this control over him? It's...cute. He stares at me. I'm standing in between his legs and i hadn't realised how intimate it was until his hands ended up on my waist. Oddly enough i don't hate it. I love it. Love...
"Xavier i owe you an apology. A proper one." He is still staring at me. There's not one ounce of confusion on his face, almost as if he knows exactly what i'm apologising for.
"When I had first come to Nevermore, I had my guard up. I didn't want to get close to anyone. I didn't even want to be here. You, you seemed to want otherwise. It looked like you were trying to be my friend. I know i hadn't reciprocated your friendship and instead i lied to you, i invaded your privacy, i hurt you, i had you thrown in jail, i , i" I look away from him and whisper my next words.
"I believed Tyler over you. I believed Tyler was the better choice. I let Tyler in. I reciprocated Tyler's feelings. I kissed hi-" I'm cut off by Xavier who stands up and cups my face with his hands.
"Wednesday please don't talk about him. I forgive you. I forgive you for everything. Even through it all, my heart remained certain about one thing. My heart knew it belonged to you even in that jail cell. I had said some things that i'm not proud of. I want to apologise for them. I'm sorry Wednesday, for trying to make myself believe that you no longer had my heart when i knew you did. For saying such stuff in the process of trying to keep what was left of my heart. Please, please don't talk about reciprocating feelings. Especially his feelings. Don't talk about the fact that his undeserving lips touched yours. Just thinking about it makes me insane, that you might not even feel the same way about me." I don't know what's come over me but i couldn't stop myself from kissing him. I immediately kiss him and he kissed back. This kiss is more prominent than our first one. It's more passionate. It speaks of our feelings. Everything that hasn't been said between us until this point is being said through the movement of our lips against each others. I'm panting by the time i break away from him and so is he. We just look at each other for a while until i speak.
"My feelings for you are unmatched compared to the feelings that i held for Tyler. You have taken control of every aspect of me. My mind, my words...." I whisper the last remaining words of the day.
"My body...my body is affected by everything of you. Your touch,  your words, your sound, your love...my everything is affected by your everything." He kisses me again but this time my back meets a wall and he picks me up. My body is clinging to his and we kiss.
"My everything is affected by your everything too Wednesday." He kisses me again and i can feel his smile. We break away because Ajax comes.
"Guys let's get to our next class." He says before he gets Enid. I forgot we had class. Why did i have this talk in between classes? I feel Xavier's stare. He looks at me with...something in his eyes. Almost as if he were also irritated with our sudden disruption. He bends down to my ear and whispers what took control on my mind in my next class.
"Please come to my room after your last class. I'm not sure i'm done with you yet." I blush and he smirks as he takes my arm in his and drops me off at my next class.
This is slowly driving me insane. Atleast insanity is a same old Wednesday Addams emotion. I'm still the same old me. Just with heightened feelings. Thanks to you, Xavier. Oh wait. The dance is tomorrow.

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THE DANCEEEEE🫶🏼🫶🏼