Undeniable

distance

Wednesdays POV:
"Anddddd... what happened while we were gone?" Enid is back from "fetching something from class."
"Nothing happened Enid." I say bluntly while continuing to type on my typewriter. There are more important things for me to focus on right now. My writing and the stalker. I need to stay alert and focused.
"Oh." She says, disappointed.
"Yes oh and i'd like it if you didn't coerce Xavier into asking me out."
"Oh so you know. Well clearly he needed a slight push. There's tension between you two. You guys need to do something about that."
"No we do not." i say and it's true. There absolutely nothing that we need to do about whatever's going on between us. That is why i'm going to have to avoid him. I cannot risk anything anymore. No more art lessons. No more contact.
"Whatever you say but you and i both know that's not true." She says before going on her phone and facetiming Ajax. The night is young, I can devote this time for writing.

It's way too early for Enid to be going on like this.
"And last night, he said 'Good night babe, i lo- uhm goodnight.' THAT CLEARLY MEANS SOMETHING WEDNESDAY. HE WANTED TO SAY 'I LOVE YOU'. Why didn't he say it?" She goes on.
"Maybe he thought you weren't ready for that."
"How could he possibly think that. We've done so much together. We kissed, he stayed over, he's met my parents, i've met his, we had se-"
"That's enough out of you." I did not need to know everything.
"I just wish he could say it." She sighs.
"Have you said it?" I question. All this talk about him not being able to say it but has she said it?
"Well n-no but it's been implied." She stammers.
"Enid. If you haven't even said it, don't question why he hasn't."
"That's right. Maybe i should say it first, i mean women can take initiative. I can take initiative." She says.
"Then do it. Say 'I love you', and see where it goes from there."
"Wow Wednesday. I never thought i'd be taking love advice from you." It's true. I've obviously changed. I'm more cooperative with certain things. I even listen to Enid's rambling.
"There's a first time for everything."
"Maybe a first time for a date with Xav-"
"Enid."
"Sorrrrry. But maybe you know, take your own advice." No. I can give advice but i sure won't
take it myself. Not when it comes to that.
"Enid you know that i didn't come here for romance and i have no interest in it at all."
"But Tyler-"
"Tyler was a mistake. I lowered my guard once and that happened. Never again." I countered back. I had let Tyler in and it was clearly a mistake and it's that type of mistake you don't make twice.
"I'm sorry Wednesday. I shouldn't have brought him up. Let just go to class and forget about this." Enid said apologetically.
"Okay." We walk to class and proceed to our seats learning about the history of Jericho.
"Well that was boring." Enid says. She wasn't much of a fan of history.
"It was." I can't lie. It was in fact boring. Imagine learning about the town you don't want to be in.
Before we could stress more on this topic Ajax and Xavier make their way towards us.
"Hey babe." Ajax says while kissing Enid.
"Hello love." Enid counters back, reciprocating his kiss. I try not to let my disgust show too much but clearly i failed because Xavier starts chuckling.
"Yes Wednesday make it even more clear that this much PDA should be forbidden." He says.
"Get outta here bro." Ajax says before turning back to Enid. The two are completely drowned puppy love that i'm sure they've completely forgot about us. I look around wondering where i could go from here. I purposely avoid Xavier's eyes even though he's staring straight at me.
"I'm going upstairs to the dorm Enid." I say.
"Mhm." Enid says not worrying too much about anything else besides the stone idiot in front of her.
"Could i come?" Xavier asks. I'm so very tempted to say yes but i remember what i told myself this morning.
"No i'm busy." I say. I can hear how rude i sound but it's better that way maybe he can back off. I turn back only to see Xavier looking towards me with a pained expression. Almost as if i...hurt him? I just said no, how badly could that have hurt? I turn back and continue my walk upstairs.

The past couple of weeks have turned out like this:
Enid and I looking for a dress for me for the dance.
Enid talking about her failed attempts at saying "i love you" to Ajax.
And
Me avoiding Xavier at all costs. I think he knows that i'm avoiding him because i haven't been going to our art classes and whenever he's around i avoid his gaze and walk away from him. I keep a safe distance between us because as much as he effects me mentally, he effects me physically too. Any sort of contact would send electricity trickling up and down me and i make it blatantly obvious therefore no physical contact. I haven't responded to any of his texts. Well i've only responded to the important ones like if he needed anything but even then i'd keep my replies short.
No stalker updates so the dance might be my chance.
I'm walking towards my next class when i see Xavier. He notices me immediately and starts to walk towards me. Now the mature thing would be to face him and treat him like any other human but recently he's got me acting different so i turn around and thankfully i'm met with Eugene.
"Wednesday! Hey are you okay? Your face is all flushed which isn't usual for you." Yes Eugene say it louder for the people in the back.
"Yes i'm fine. Actually could we go to the bees? I've been meaning to check on them." I say.
"Really? Okay sure let's go." I'm thankful for his excitement for bees so he doesn't question my sudden interest in his bees. I slightly turn back to get a glimpse of Xavier's face. He looks pissed. He's staring at me and that gaze STILL makes me burn everywhere. He's eyes don't leave mine so i make the choice to turn away from him. The dance is in two days. It's starting to get harder to avoid him.

I'm absolutely famished by the time i reach the dorm. I've been running around doing things so i could take my mind off of Xavier. I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling. Enid isn't here. Today is. Attempt #6 at trying to say "i love you" to Ajax. As i lay on my bed, the door opens. I could only assume it's Enid.
"Enid could you get me a glass of water?" I ask closing my eyes. I don't get a response back.
"Enid i said could you please-"
"I heard you the first time." A male voice says. Ah, Xavier. I immediately sit up.
"Xavier what're you doi-"
"Why have you been avoiding me?" He says. That same pained expression.
"I haven't. I've been busy." I retort.
"Busy? Okay not busy enough for everyone else though right?"
"What do you mean?"
"You can talk to Enid, Ajax, Eugene and Bianca i mean even Bianca but you don't even say a word to me. You've been ignoring my texts. You haven't come to our art classes. I mean Wednesday, seeing me was bad enough so you decided to look at bees instead. It's driving me insane. I don't think you understand but seeing you and talking to you had been the best parts of my day but recently you've been depriving me of even looking at you and the goddamn problem is i look at you all the time so i don't know how to stop. The dance is in two days and i cannot i physically and mentally cannot stand this distance between us. We'd come close Wednesday and one day you woke up and decided not to even look at me? I mean did i do something?" He says and he sounds pained. I hadn't thought that my presence affected him that much.
"Nothing Xavier. You did nothing. I mean it i'm just busy-"
"Do not give me that bullshit Wednesday." He says stepping closer to me. Almost towering over me. He's staring at me hard.
"Tell me why you've been avoiding me." He whispers. His gaze intense.
"I-I just needed some distance. Xavier you have to understand that being around you has been the most difficult thing for me. You have quite literally taken over my mind and have invaded me physically. My body responds to your slight touches, my heartbeat escalates making me fear that it might even give out. You're constantly on my mind and i cannot do anything about it. I can't have feelings for you. My life is perfect the way it is, I can't have you coming into it and messing it up. So please do us both a favour and leav-" His lips come crashing into mine.
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a little bit of a cliffhanger doesn't hurt anyone.
i've come up with a new original story called "happiest mistake" i'd like it if that story could get a little appreciation!!!