Semblance- ASHTON IRWIN

Lover Of Mine.

Ashton's POV: December 3rd, 2022.

7:45am

"You don't know what you do to me, Sunflower." I whisper, lightly brushing back her curly hair as her eyes laid shut.

Just how lovely you truly are, with your beautiful smile and the way you look at me.

The way your perfect finger tips feel against my damaged skin...and those brown eyes.

Oh, those beautiful dark brown eyes.

They draw me in, and make me never want to let go.

As my fingers gently untangle from her hair, I lay back against the bed, sighing a heavy sigh as I feel the whirlwind of emotions start to rush through me.

I am scared.

I would be a big liar if I said I wasn't.

The way she makes me feel is only comparable to the way it feels taking in a breath of oxygen into your lungs, breathing in the needed air to survive.

I've never been one with my emotions. Not even when we were young and dumb.

I was never one to care about any of that, until now.

And the only way I could fully describe it was pure love.

I have always known I've had love for Avana.

But this...

This was a type of love you only get once in your lifetime, and the thought of that scared me.

Because I never again want to be the reason for her tears.

She was so brave, so head strong.

She never will let anyone whither her petals away.

But if I am continuing the honesty here

She terrified me.

She terrified me with how strong willed she was, with how much she was ready to take on no matter the circumstances. The second anyone needs her help, she jumps in. No matter the consequences.

She was a fighter, and that terrified the ever living hell out of me, because she's not the girl she was when she first came back to my life.

She's a hitman, just like me.

And it scared me to lose her.

I'm scared of her getting hurt, I was in a constant state of worry whenever she came along for the jobs.

Yet, what scares me the most, is that I won't ever be enough for her...that I won't live up to be the one person she deserves.

Because Avana, she deserves everything in the world.

Especially after what the world has taken from her.

But, the one thing that always washes my worry away, was her constant insistence of love.

She makes me a better man, she makes  me want to be anything and everything for her.

And she truly made me feel as if I'm worth loving.

They always say, people come into your life for a reason.

A lesson, perhaps.

But with Avana

Meeting and knowing her was like listening to a song for the first time, and knowing that it would always be my favorite.

She was a lifetime to me. She's come in and crawled into a space in my heart I didn't know would ever be fixable, patching every piece within me that I've lost along the way of life.