Forgotten Love? HanxReader

Love Brings Overthinking

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I don't know how it started. I just remember looking into his eyes that seemed to hold the entire universe in them, and his perfect smile that shined brighter than the sun, and well I ended up catching feelings

This oh so perfect person I'm talking about is Han Jisung. I promised the members that I would love them all equally and that there'll be no favorites, but I created a bond with Han that time nor space could ever break. at least that's what I thought until he met her.

Ali was a really good friend of mine. We were always together before I met Stray Kids. After becoming close with the members I made more time to hangout with them that I ended up forgetting about our friendship.

After 2 years we got back in contact and I decided to introduce Ali to all the members. Once I introduced them they instantly took a liking to her, and I noticed Han took a liking to her a 'bit' more than the others. Since then I saw Ali and Han together almost all the time. I didn't think a lot about it at first, until Han started cancelling our plans and ditching me for her.

I started to think she was taking some kind of revenge since I forgot about our friendship, she even started ignoring me and pretending I didn't even exist. I've spent the last few days crying and then feeling pathetic for crying over something, or more like someone I have no control of.

Well here I am laying in bed after many days of crying.  As I was fixing my pillow for another round of tears I heard a knock on the door. I instantly got up and tried to fix myself and my apartment as fast and as best as I could, then I headed to open the door. Once I opened it I saw Felix there with a sad smile.

"Oh hey Felix" I said trying to muster the best smile I could to not seem like I had just spent the past few days crying like there was no tomorrow. "Y/N we are all worried about you, we haven't seen you in days" Felix says in a soft voice trying to see past my fake smile, trying to see where I've been, and how I've been because I'm pretty sure I look like a mess.

"I doubt everyone was worried" I mumble to myself thinking about how Han probably doesn't even bother to think about me for even a second, a second would've been enough to repair my broken heart enough. "I couldn't hear you, what did you say" Felix asked confused moving slightly closer to me with his ear facing my direction. "Don't worry about it, come in it's kinda cold out" I say moving aside to let him in.

"Anyways, how did you get the address to my apartment?" I asked Felix remembering that I have never told him where I lived. "I asked Han for your address since you guys always had movie nights together here, he was a bit hesitant to give it to me at first and I had to do a little bit of begging" He said which shocked me, why would Han care about Felix coming over to my apartment? Its not like he even cares enough to talk to me anyways.

"You know y/n, I haven't seen you and Han talk to each other in a really long time, what happened?" Felix asked seeming concerned and somewhat sad? I sighed not knowing how to exactly tell him everything but I got enough courage to spill everything that has been on my mind since the very beginning of everything. "I know Han felt the same way about you but since Ali came he seems to be more closed off" Felix says the first part quietly and quickly but I caught what he said and a lot of thoughts raced to my head all at once.

I can't believe that Han actually felt the same way, I actually had a chance, but what happened? I decided to confront him the next day to get the answers to the questions that have been stuck in my mind for the past weeks about him and Ali. Despite having ruined my sleep schedule that never really existed in the first place, I woke up just before 9 am.

I decided to take some time to take a shower and to choose a decent outfit, but most of all I got ready mentally. I remember his schedule so I know where he currently is. I miss the time that I remembered his whole schedule just so I knew where he was so we could hangout, good times. I know that he's currently at the studio, I really hope Ali isn't with him.

I knock on the door to the studio and announced that I was going to come in since I didn't hear anything. As I opened the door I scanned the room and to my relief Ali wasn't there with him. I closed the door behind me when I walked in and sat on the small sofa in the room. "Han can we talk?" I asked him as I saw him tense up "Please? It'll be quick" he sighed and turned around in his chair "What is it?" He asked in a soft tone which seemed to shock himself, and to be honest it shocked me too.

"Yesterday Felix came to my apartment and we talked a bit and he mentioned that you said you liked me" I said trying not to stumble over my words as my confidence slowly deteriorated. I didn't know it was going to be this hard to tell him what he, himself, said. Han seemed to be speechless of the fact that Felix would tell me something like that.

"Look I just want to know the truth because I liked you too and I just want to clear things up so I don't have some kind of false hope" I said, even at this moment I hoped he still liked me. "Yes it's true that I liked you" he said looking guilty "what happened then? Why did you lose feelings? Is it because of Ali?" I asked him feeling the most confused I have ever been.

"I wouldn't say I lost feelings but rather I forgot about them because of Ali, she told me that you hated me and that you were just using me" Han admits, I stare at him shocked, he really left me speechless, but I mean when does he not. Joking aside I can't believe that Ali would stoop that low.

After a while I asked "why did you believe her?" I could tell he wasn't proud of the fact he would believe her instead of asking me for the truth. "I don't know why I believed her, but then she told me she liked me" He said as he started to fidget with his hands "Well... do you like her back?" I asked him. Half of me wished I didn't ask him because the thought of him liking her back hurt me so much.

"No I don't like her, I like you remember?" Han said the last part in a whisper as he looked down suddenly really interested in the floor. "Then that makes my previous question valid, why did you ignore me and not confront me about it?" I asked Han, I was desperate for answers at this point.

"She always followed me around and wouldn't leave me alone, she kept making me cancel our plans and always made me make up excuses" Han said in a sympathetic voice. I nodded, I didn't know what to say. "So did you mean it when you said you liked me?" Han asked, the question caught me off guard.

I completely forgot I confessed my feelings towards him. "Yeah I meant it" I said hesitantly, there's still a chance he could reject me. Han looked at me with the biggest smile, I missed his smile a lot. "So after everything would you consider giving me a chance and go out with me?"

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