Into the Mind and Through the Heart

I Can't Help It

I hate overthinking.
I hate that I miss you.
I hate that you're across the country.
I hate being in a different time zone.
I hate feeling like I'm doing too much.
I hate feeling clingy.

But I can't help it.
I can't help missing you.
I went from seeing you everyday to being in different states.
And we knew that was gonna happen.
And we continued to grow attached,
Or at least I did.

But I can't help it.
You made it easy.
You make me feel safe.
Loved. Beautiful.
You make me melt with just a few words.

But I can't help but miss you.
Your touch,
Your laugh, the way you looked at me,
The way you comforted me.
The way you continue to endlessly make me smile.
I didn't want to fall for you.

But I couldn't help it.
And now here I am,
3 in the morning and I can't sleep.
Too busy thinking. Too busy missing you.
I couldn't help myself when it came to falling for you.

And I don't want to regret it
But deep down I have a feeling I will.
Until then, I love you.
Until then, I miss you.
Until then I hate you.