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Love in the dark - AT -

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Before we start I just wanted to say I'm sorry for not posting as much as I used to it's just school , and not havingn ideas if u could give me suggestions that would be great also , TYSM FOR 11k READS!!

Suggested song - love in the dark , Adele
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Y/n's pov -
I woke up and I had no idea where I was but I did hear beeping and my body was aching "oh finally I see ur up" I heard someone say and I finally opened my eyes and raised myself up "huh?, where am I" I said wincing because of how bad my body was aching

"Ur in the hospital sweetie" the nurse said "why? What happened" I said I'm not remembering what had happened "well they didn't tell me much they only told me that u were in a really bad fight I don't know if it was a fist fight or argument but yea" she said while writing something down then I remembered just a part where me and ash was in the bathroom thinking we was about to get shot "wait where's ash??" She looked at me in confusion "who?" "My boyfriend ashtray" she was still confused "there was never a ashtray who came here" now I was the one confused "what do u mean?"

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I was now out of the hospital and I had figured out that fez went to jail and ash had died.. so I was heading to his grave cus I had missed it due to me being in the hospital

"Hi ash um I'm sorry I couldn't go to the funeral I was going to go but I was in the hospital I had got shot in my arm so" a tear had left my eye I started talking to him a bit more and each word that came out each year started gushing out

I was blaming myself for his death if it wasn't for me he wouldn't be gone and fez wouldn't be in jail "I can't love u in the dark if feels like we're oceans apart. There is so so so much space between us and we're already defeated" I say that because everyone in school had said me and ash would never last he would either leave me or he would end up killing himself which I never thought he would

I looked over to my side and saw ash?? Am I dreaming this has to be fake "ash?" "Pls don't fall apart I can't face ur breaking heart" "but I-" "no don't cry over me I was no good to u u will find someone new eventually and forget all about me so don't waste ur tears over me" I've never heard him say anything like this "I'm trying to be brave.." I looked over at him " I wish u could have stayed a little longer" "stop asking me to stay"

I looked down at the grass and more tears fell and I looked back at ash and he was gone but I could still feel his presence "I know ur still here so im going to say what I have to say before I go" and I said what I needed to and began to sit up I looked back up and say ash again "it's going to get better I promise love" he kissed my cheek before he faded away...

A/n
Y'all sorry I haven't been active lately it's just school but I'm starting to have more ideas just by listening to music💀anyways hope u like it byeee