Eyes on me

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Kim didn't get much sleep last night. After practicing with Porchay, he went to rehearse for his upcoming concert which took him the entire night and by the time he had ended the rehearsal because his throat started to get a little sore and his eyes were so tired he could barely keep them open, it was half past 5 in the morning.

With a mere 5 hours of sleep,  he was now on his way to his studio because he had promised Porchay he'd help him out for his college entrance exam.

"Khun Kim, you sure you don't want to rest for today?" Big asked, clearly concerned at the eyebags under the young master's eyes.

"I'm good." Kim said with a yawn, which got Big eyeing him silently in disapproval. The young master looked incredibly exhausted and yet he still insisted on meeting Porchay. At this rate, he seriously wonders if the brunette's body could keep up with these little hours of sleep even if the young master really wanted to push on. There are limits to how much your body can take anyway.

Big dropped Kim off at the entrance as the brunette walked into the studio, his right hand holding onto his guitar. When he entered the studio, he saw Porchay practicing diligently by himself on the guitar, going through the chords that they'd revised yesterday.

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"Good afternoon, Phi Kim!" Porchay greeted Kim excitedly as he spotted the latter by the door.

Kim muttered a good morning in return, then he sat next to Porchay as usual, signifying the start of "class".

"We'll focus on expressions today." Kim said to which Porchay nodded. "Music is not all just about the techniques, but the emotions too."

Following which he had Porchay sit in front of him and a camera on a tripod stand he already had in the studio. He had Porchay go through the song once, focusing on bringing out the emotions he wanted to convey through the piece.

What Porchay thought was supposed to be an "easy" exercise, turned out to be the one he hated most. It was intimidating enough to sing in front of a camera that was videoing his every move, but it was even worse performing under the scrutinizing eyes of Mr Kim Theerapanyakul who now had his hands folded across his chest and laid back against the chair, awaiting for Porchay's performance to begin.

Porchay started off horribly as he had imagined. The nerves had gotten the better of him so instead of actually singing the song, it felt like he was simply reading the lines and going through the motions. A 3 minute song never felt so long.

When he was finally done performing, Kim paused the video and stared at him while he was composing the thoughts in his head as Porchay waited nervously.

"This song...it's about someone you like?" Kim spoke after moments of painful silence and Porchay nodded slowly, subconsciously tightening his grip on the guitar.

"Try picturing this person in your head," Kim suggested. "And think of nothing else."

While it sounded easy, to Porchay, this task was immensely difficult and he couldn't help but grow flustered at the instruction. The reason? Well...this song was about Kim...so how could he not think of anything when the protagonist is literally sitting in front of him. But of course, Kim didn't know about this and he must never!

Porchay tried a few times, but Kim's suggestion didn't seem to work on him because by the 5th try even Kim thinks this is going nowhere. This piece was meant to sound cheerful but the lack of emotions had caused it to sound simply dreadful and Porchay himself was at the verge of giving up on the last try.

"S-sorry Phi. I don't know why but I just find it so hard to picture that someone." Porchay admitted helplessly. "Everytime I do, I can't seem to focus."