Neverland

whenever I was frightened or ever felt alone

Jennie looked down at the little thimble in her hand, the edges a little tarnished but still as solid as the day it was made. A cold wind blew past her and she closed her hand into a fist, feeling the metal edges dig into her palm. It had been almost two weeks since Lisa had left and Jennie's heart still didn't feel whole.

Mino seemed to bask in Jennie's new free time since Lisa left. Jennie didn't mind because it meant that she had a distraction from everything else. They cooked together and watched tv almost every night, catching up on the shows they had missed while Jennie had been...busy. It was all very fine and comforting and goddamnit why did everything remind Jennie of Lisa?

She knew she had made a mistake in kissing Lisa, there was no denying that. Not even when she was standing in the middle of the forest holding a goddamn thimble as a sign of her love for her. Not even when there was already a small pile of thimbles lying at her feet like some sort of offering.

Jennie opened her palm and saw the little indentations on her skin, crossing over back and forth in the same pattern as the one on the side of the thimble.

What was she even trying to accomplish? Lisa was gone and Jennie had thrown away her chance to go with her. There was no use holding on to this childhood fantasy of a relationship that could never work.

Right?

Jennie let out a deep breath and blew her newly cut bangs out of her face. Jisoo had called them her breakup bangs because she got them after Lisa left. Jennie told Jisoo she was just hormonal.

She looked back down at the tiny pile of thimbles. Hands shaking, she leaned down and put the latest thimble on top of the growing pile. She wondered if Lisa had felt the same way every time she brought her an acorn for the pile. Like a sadness had burrowed deep into her and was trying to eat her inside out.

"I miss you," Jennie whispered into the wind, hoping it would find its way to Lisa.

***

"Ugh is this all we have?" Jisoo frowned down at the yogurt that Jennie had put down in front of her at the bar. "With that fake fruit shit on the bottom?"

"You're the one that picked this out, remember. And the ones with the candy in it," Jennie wrinkled her nose in disapproval.

"Well I definitely wasn't eating that vegan shit," Jisoo muttered, pouting as she pulled open the foil lid. Jennie suddenly knew exactly what this baby would look like.

"You never told me about the father," Jennie said, folding her arms on the bar in front of her and giving Jisoo a gentle look.

Jisoo grunted, not even looking up from her yogurt as she stabbed it with a spoon. "He was a- well, I'm not sure what exactly we-" She screwed up her face in confusion and took a giant bite of yogurt, taking her time to swallow it as she looked up at Jennie. "His name was Haein."

"Okay," Jennie smiled. "Do you have a picture?" Jisoo threw her a look. "What? I want to see how adorable my little niece or nephew is gonna be."

Rolling her eyes, Jisoo reached for her phone and pulled up a picture, turning it towards Jennie.

Jisoo's face was only in half the frame and she was laying on her side on a bed, behind her a man who looked half asleep with a small smile on his face. His darker skin stood out from where his arm was slung over Jisoo's stomach.

"Wowsers this baby is going to be beautiful," Jennie said. Jisoo snatched her phone back and shoved it back into her pocket. But her lips still tilted cockily.

"Yeah, he is their father material for sure," Jisoo wiggled her eyebrows and made a purring sound. Jennie blushed and frowned at her.

"No need to get graphic."