Leonardo DiCaprio Short Stories

Accidents VII

The days went by in a blur, and time didn't seem to matter when I wasn't with Leo. It was now the day of the funeral, and I forced myself to shower before we left. After I finished getting dressed, Iremlin came into my room and gave me a note. She told me that she found it in Leo's room and that it was addressed to me. She didn't read it, but thought that I should. I looked at the paper and studied his hand writing, it was average, but more neat than other boys our age.

Dear (y/n),

I don't really know why I am writing this, but the doctors told me that I have a higher chance of something happening to me after the accident and I wanted to write down my feelings just incase something ever happened to me. After the accident, I realized how quickly you can lose someone you love. And if you are reading this, I am so sorry. I hope you never have to see this paper, but if you do, just know that I love you.

I have loved you since we were kids. That one day that you ate shit on my patio chasing me because I had your journal was the day that I realized that I loved you. I was too much of a pussy to say anything about it, but I'm glad that I eventually did. I love you so much. Everything about you. The way you don't care what anyone thinks of you, the bravery you have showed when everything happened with your dad, the way you love me and let me love you back, the way your hair falls so perfectly onto your shoulders. I love every little detail about you. The way you smell, the way your mascara runs when you cry, the way you forgive me so easily. I really do love you so so much.

If something happened to me and I am no longer there with you, I need you to let me go. I need you to find another love, I need you to be happy. That's all I want. I want you to be happy, (y/n). You are the brightness in my life, you mean everything to me, and you deserve the world. I love you so much, and I just want you to be happy.

Love,

Leo

I was in tears when I finished reading, but I was prepared to cry today. My waterproof mascara thankfully worked, but my cheeks were red and my eyes were puffy and bloodshot. I got in the car with Iremlin and we drove to the funeral.

It was nice to see everyone there. Everyone came and hugged me, told me they were so sorry for my loss, and that they were sad to see such a bright soul leave this world too soon. The only person who didn't say anything to me was Johnny, and I was surprised. I saw him standing in the corner of the room, tears in his eyes. I walked over to him and he quickly wiped the tears when he noticed me.

"Hey, Johnny. Thanks for coming." I weakly smiled at him.

"Yeah. Thanks for letting me come. I'm really gonna miss him, he was the best dude I knew."

"Yeah, me too. Can I, uh- can I hug you?" Johnny looked at me hesitantly when I asked to hug him, but he walked towards me and wrapped his arms around me. "Thank you." I silently sobbed in his arms, wetting his chest with my tears. "Oh shit, I'm sorry."

"Don't worry about it." He smiled at me. "I should go find my seat."

"Okay. Me too." We went our separate ways and I found my seat next to Iremlin. I sat in silence and zoned out until it was my turn to speak. I went up to the podium and cleared my throat, looking out at all the people who came. Some of Leo's friends from school, a lot of his family, and even some people he knew from other schools.

"Um, hi everyone. Thank you all for coming. I'm sure you all know that Leo and I were in a relationship for a few months, and um.. well, I don't really know how to cope with losing the person I love. He was my best friend for pretty much my entire life. We grew up together. I remember making mud pies and having water gun fights when we were little. There was one day out of all of them that was the most memorable. Leo had found my journal and was trying to read it as I chased him around the yard, trying to get it back. I would have done anything to get my journal out of his hands. I thought my life would end if he read what I wrote on those pages. We were just freshmen, but we had already grown so much and had so much more to grow. Despite my best efforts, Leo read the one page that I regretted writing. The page contained my confession of my feelings for Leo. I was so distracted with the fact that he was finding out that I had a crush on him that I wasn't paying attention to where I was running. I tripped over something and fell onto the patio. I scraped my knees and my hands really bad, and Leo was there to help me. He was always there, but he stayed after he found out that I was in love with him. Though, it would take two more years for him to grow the balls to tell me how he felt. The time that we spent together as a couple were the best moments I ever had. The way he told me that he loved me, the way he held me when I cried, the way he smelled, everything about him was perfect. And it hurts so bad to know that I never got to tell him goodbye, I never got to tell him that I loved him one last time. I miss him more than I can ever explain. He was the love of my life, and I know that I am only 17, but he was also only 17. We were supposed to have the rest of our lives to love each other, but he was taken away from me. I don't know what I believe in, but if there is a higher power, I don't understand why they needed to take him away from me. Um... anyways. Thank you all for being here and for being there in Leo's life." I wiped the tears from my cheeks and returned to my seat next to Iremlin. She wrapped her arms around me and kissed the top of my head before going up to the podium herself.

My brain was clouded and everything happened in a daze as we drove to the cemetery. Iremlin has three plots and we decided to put Leo in one. Everyone payed their final respects and left after we lowered the casket into the ground. Iremlin and I stayed and watched as the filled the hole with dirt.

"I'm going to go home now. Would you like to come?" She asked. I agreed and we made our way back home.

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I didn't leave my room for the next three weeks. School had started again, and I refused to go. I couldn't walk into the building if I didn't have Leo right by my side. I couldn't face our classmates or receive the pitiful looks from all the teachers. I decided that today I would go and visit Leo's grave for the first time since he died.

After Iremlin left for work, I got in my car and drove to the cemetery. I found Leo's grave and sat next to it. His headstone was made out of granite and placed neatly in the ground. I brought a fresh bouquet of flowers, specifically red roses, because he always said it was so cliché for boys to get their girlfriends roses. The engraving on his headstone read:

Leonardo Wilhelm DiCaprio

November 11, 1974- December 15, 1991

May his soul and the souls of all the faithful departed, through the mercy of God, rest in peace.

I laid down next to his grave and silently cried. I swear I could feel his presence, but maybe I was just going a little crazy. "Leo." I whispered, mostly to myself. "I don't know if you can hear me, but I am going to pretend like you can."

"Maybe I'm fucking crazy. I can feel your absence slowly killing me. It hurts like nothing ever has before. I wish I could see your face, I wish I could hold you and tell you how much I miss you. I wish I could tell you that I love you one last time, or kiss your sweet, soft, perfect lips again. I play our songs in my room. I cry as I listen to the parts that you used to sing. We're soulmates, you and I, but that doesn't mean it works. That means my soul can't bear to be without yours, but I don't have a choice anymore. I still get so overwhelmed when I remember. I burst into tears once or twice a day. You and I together is the most foolish thing I've ever hoped for. You and I apart is more foolish. I never feel like I'm wasting time with you. We could sit in silence for hours and it would still feel so full, so good, and so necessary. I'm so thankful for you, Leonardo. I'm sorry that our time was cut short. I'm sorry for trying to love you before I knew what I was doing. The next person I kiss is never going to touch the parts if me that you held onto. Nobody can ever compare to how you make me feel. I can't live this life without you, Leo. What if I don't want to die? What if I just don't want to live the life I am living without you? There has to be time to change. There has to be hope for more. But the more that I am hoping for is the time that I am reunited with you. Whether that be after I die, in another life, or any other time. I'm not ready to let go, but I'm left without a choice. I love you so much, Leo. I will always love you. Maybe we will meet again, but just know that you saved me. You made me feel like I was worth something. You showed me how it feels to be loved and how it feels to love someone. I hate to say goodbye, but I'm left without a choice. This is goodbye, but only for now. I will find you again. I have to. I love you so so much, Leonardo. More than anyone could ever possibly understand. And it hurts to say this, it absolutely breaks me to even think about saying these last, final words to you. But I need to say them, so I don't live the rest of my empty, meaningless, life without saying it. You gave my life purpose, and I'm so grateful for that. Goodbye, Leonardo DiCaprio."

A/N: I hope you enjoyed the story, even if everything didn't work out. I will have more stories out in the future!