I hate that I love you.

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here we go!!!

anything in in italics is thoughts of who's pov it is in.

I will put when I switch pov's but if I don't then it is in y/n's pov

hope yall enjoy 🧚‍♀️

(not proof read)

TW: slight cussing

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I am laying in my bed when I hear my alarm go off, I didn't realize that I have been staring at the ceiling since 3am, right now it is currently 5am and I am not as tired as I should be. As I continue to stare I start to think why couldn't I go to sleep last night?  why am I waking up this early? thats when it hits me.

"OH MY GOD" I say out loud as I realize why I am awake right now I start at the FBI today, the fucking behavioral analysis unit. I pick up my phone, when I realize that my alarm is still going off, I turn it off and look at the time.

5:10am

I quickly jump out of my bed and head to my bathroom, I take my phone with my to play some music while I shower. I take off my clothes while I press the shuffle button on my shower playlist,  good looking by suki waterhouse starts to play.

Tides thrash inside

Baby, I'm high octane

Fever in a shock wave

My core vibrates in an opium haze

"Yet you think were the same" I start to sing along

The skyline falls as I try to make sense of it all

I thought I'd uncovered your secrets, but turns out there's more

You adored me before

"Oh, my good looking girl" I smile as I sing the words, ever since I first heard the song I changed the lyrics because I would never call a boy good looking, oh and because i'm a lesbian.

Finishing my shower I turn off the water and grab my towel wrapping it around my body. I grab my phone and go to my playlist and search for one of my favorite songs, 505 by arctic monkeys.

"I'm going back to 505" I start to sing once again, before I grab my toothbrush and start to brush my teeth.

If it's a seven hour flight or a forty-five minute drive

In my imagination, you're waitin' lyin' on your side

With your hands between your thighs

As i'm brushing my teeth I hum along to the song playing in the background. After I finished brushing my teeth I walk over to my closet to pick out my outfit for the day.

"BUT I CRUMBLE COMPLETELY WHEN YOU CRY" I sing my favorite part of the song as I look for a outfit.

After staring at my closet for 5 minutes I finally decide on a simple black long sleeve, grey dress pants, with my black doc martin boots. I grab my clothes and lay it out on my bed before I head back to my bathroom.

I look at myself in the mirror trying to decide on my makeup and hair for the day. I look at the little collection of makeup that I own, and do a simple but cute look. A little mascara, light eyeshadow, some highlight and lipgloss. 

Once I finish my makeup I grab my blow dryer and start to blow-dry my hair. As soon as my hair is dry I grab my straighter and start to put a few curls in my hair. When I finish I look at myself in the mirror damn, i'm hot I say to myself as I walk into my room to finish getting ready.