This time i won't lie to myself. I want him.
I want him as much as i never did before
someone else.
And i never felt so hopeless about someone before too.
Ironic.
No. I can tell this one is different. I want him to be mine and i want to be his.
We've looked at each other before a couple of times to check out but when i looked at his face directly to meet him for the first time officially. I said...wow... his eyes are green. I understood what they ment when they said my heart fell to my stomach, when they said my heart skipped a beat. I did.
When we walk through the way to subway. I will never forget the way he looked. So tall, so close. I will never forget how he leaned his head back when he laughed at something i said.
God...
I really wish this time.
I'd do anything to know him feel the same way.
I can't help but felt like we've already knew each other. Even it's so irrelevant the phase we're in: Trying to get to know who we are. I told myself: "We really should be holding hands by now tbh."
But in reality i don't know if he treats "me" in that way or it's just the way he is. Is he that sincere to everyone?
You know... the past traumas...
Too early to say that. I don't know him well yet.
But i want to tho.
I really do.
I just hope this time i get the opportunity to know him closely.
I really want that smiling eyes of him to be special for me.
Omg i need him in my life now.
To be happy, to be busy, to be love and be loved.
Maybe even to feel in peace?
Is it possible?
Oh, i really wish.
But... he's from the other side. You know...
Just the opposite side of the river. So untouchable. He's the shiny prince in his armour. The charming guy of the parties. Kind of a man who has six hundred hot girls in his followers. "If you're not coming, so do i" kind of a boy in the group. How am i supposed to be contact him anyways? More importantly how am i gonna stay in his mind for more than a couple of minutes.
I know i can.
I know also what ı'm capable of. I know i feel like a drug when you hold on me for the first time but... how?
How am i gonna reach him?
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Fiction générale"Needed to write a diary to breathe. And i found myself as wanting to share it for some reason. Just to clear my mind, to give you another window to look at life. Maybe we will share a lot more details in the fallowing days but for now we should dea...
