This night i woke up in the middle of my sleep. And said:" I hope. I really hope."
And continue to sleep.
I think it started to be a little too dangerous.
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I saw him again today. He was walking to the subway with one of his friend and when we saw each other I said hi.
He literally panicked at first because HE COULDN'T FUCKING RECOGNISED ME!
What a disaster for my stupid ego.
But c'mon it's a little too cruel even for me.
I was already chosed the dress i was gonna wear on our first "go-out date" on online store. What a pity to me... right?
He looked at my face like "Oh,you're so kind and sincere to me. We would have been talked before but i don't even know your name. I mean which chick are you?"
I mentioned the lesson that we met closely with asking a question about its incoming exam.
I saw his shoulders relaxed. He remembered at last.
But even after he did, he couldn't complete the sentence he were trying to tell me about the physics exam we've just gotten out.
After we aparted from his friend, i couldn't see the writings on the wall for a second and couldn't decide which way to turn, i confused in subway line. He said "We're going this way."
And he ask me about when i returned the city,told me it's too sad my holiday last too short. He also remembered every little detail that we talked. A little late but better than never tho.
When we got into the train he saw another friend of his. They talked, i greeted the guy. And then he(the friend) asked him "Why are you not attending the last couple of parties" He said that he wasn't ready for the vises and then he looked at his hands,then me,then back to his friend and said he was also struggling with some "other" things in his personal life for the last couple of weeks. He said to his friend that he's gonna come back when he put the things in the way both academicly and mentally.
Now ı'm thinking... why i didn't ask him about it? It was an perfect opportunity to talk to him about something that is not shallow... whatever. He didn't even memorised my fucking name in the first sight anyways. What do i expect from him? Tell everything about his private life to the girl who he doesn't know.
It doesn't matter if i memorised all off his instagram page.
Yes, yes i did. Okay?
Don't hurt me anymore.
We talked a little bit more about anything and everything and he said bye.
Woah... it was a bad day.
So much worse than i visioned again and again in my head.
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And...oh...i think i also failed my vise but... anyways.
You know things are not going in the way that you want them to all the time.
There is nothing to do.
Right?
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