I'm in a silent hurry mood that I can't resist. It don't matter if I sit,walk,talk or try to sleep. I feel a constant rush in my daily basis. It feels like i shouldn't be here. Feels like ı've already too late for the life i should be in.
To be honest as i told, i don't have enough power to make a new start for everything. So it's a reckless decision to make actually. I'm lost.
Constantly my hands shake. It makes hard to do things with my hands. I cannot hold a coffee cup or write anything with a pen. My heart beats like crazy sometimes it makes me think about if someone can see how my chest bumps. I'm trying hard not to show it when ı'm public.
I don't wanna sleep at nights because when I sleep it's being morning so much faster. Yet ı'm tired.
On the other side i should say i feel like my ability of writing and the words I know are finished here. I don't think i can explain how I feel without saying the same things I said before. I can't stand the desire of living in me despite everything I had to face. I wish it was easier to just let go.
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Fiksi Umum"Needed to write a diary to breathe. And i found myself as wanting to share it for some reason. Just to clear my mind, to give you another window to look at life. Maybe we will share a lot more details in the fallowing days but for now we should dea...
