Bloodshed (Skk)

17- meeting

(atsushi)

So..I have to go to the port mafia base. It is kinda scary but i don't think i have another choice.

I walked to the tall building and at the entrance I was greeted by a girl that feels familiar, she had blonde hair in a bun and a wore a black blazer. She said hello to me and asked for me to follow her. We continued on the the top floor, where she stopped in front of a room before knocking. Someone who didn't sound like Dazai answered, telling us to come in. The girl opened the door and motioned for me to go ahead. The man inside told her she was free to leave.

"Dazai will be back in a minute. He is dumb and can't be assed to get changed until its too late. Sorry for the delay, just take a seat wherever you feel comfortable I guess. Don't make a sound. I am too busy to deal with your shit." The ginger haired male said, continuing to do his paperwork. I recognised him, but from where?

"If you don't mind me asking, who are you?" I questioned.

"My name is Chuuya Nakahara, but don't even think of calling me by my name, I am your superior." He answered. He seems way too cocky, I already don't like him. God, why did I have to agree to this? Where is Dazai, I just wanna get this over with. I heard a phone start ringing, Nakahara put his pen down and picked up the phone. Whoever it was must have been really mad at him since I could hear the screaming from his phone across the large room. Even he pulled the phone away from his ear because of how loud it was! He replied to the person who was screaming with, "sorry, sorry! I will be there soon, as soon as that mackrel gets her ei will be setting off, I cant trust this brat alone in the bosses office."

What? Where does he have to go? 

"Chuuya~ Is Atsushi here yet?" Well, thats the calmness over. Here comes Dazai, walking to the largest chair with a tired look.

As soon as Dazai sits down, Nakahara leaves. He says goodbye in a nice tone to Dazai as he walks out of the office.

In return, Dazai gives Nakahara a sweet smile, it looked fake still, but more genuine than i have ever seen. He then tells me to sit down opposite him and he then tells me a brief summary of what i will be doing while I am here.

"As you know, the Agency is planning my death. So I need as much information as possible to prevent it from happening, that's where you come in, I want for you to report their plans to me. Of course after this is over i wont force you to stay in the mafia, but that is up to you of course. That is also if the ADA doesn't know you are a spy. If they do then i can try find you a new job, but i have hight expectations for you, so i know that you will not fail me." he said.          

"Atsushi, I do not want for you to do all of this alone. This mission is important, and I do not want you to fail it due to pressure. So, I will give you someone to help with this matter. He can help with paperwork and any fights if needed, however, if you do at all want to quit the job, then i am afraid we will have a few problems, so therefore half the reason you have a partner is to keep a close eye on you, and you are under no circumstance are you allowed to tell any secrets of the mafia, are we clear?" his menacing tone at the end sent shivers down my spine but a knock on the door saved me from his dark stare.

The door opened to reveal Nakahara and..Akutagawa...Is he my new partner? seriously? I hate this. Nakahara immediately went to sit next to Dazai whilst akutagawa was stood at the door, bowing.

"Chuuya! Surprised to see you lived past your encounter with Kouyou after spilling your wine on her carpet!" Dazai teased, Nakahara replied with, " shut up, Mackerel. I think it is safe to say i am never going to a party at Kouyou's house with you again. Also, akutagawa, you can take a seat next to the brat." wait- am i the brat? Also, WHY ARE NAKAHARA AND DAZAI HOLDING HANDS!?! 

Nakahara noticed me staring at their hands and he pulled away from Dazai, now drawing his attention to him instead of Akutagawa and me, who were sat on opposite sides of the sofa to eachother. 

" Stop staring you brat. its weird." I heard the ginger say from across me,

"chuuya, dont be so mean! He is probably shocked to see us holding hands since most of the time i rambled on about double-suicide with women, but you can sure as hell pass for one with your height!"

"I wonder why i love you of all people."

"because i am amazing and fabulous, right, Atsushi?"

"more like annoying but believe what you wanna.." i said back to dazai, who was teasing Nakahara until his face went red.

"Aw, seriously? You are meant to be on my side, not this shorty's! He is probably hiding his true hight with the hat and some other things too. I seriously wonder why he is my boyfriend right now. Seriously, he is sooo annoying." dazai said, Nakahara looked sad for a moment before it turned to anger.

"Fine, do what you want! But i am leaving, have fun fighting off the agency you bastard. Find someone else, someone who would fit your dumb expectations." He said back, he stormed out of the door, guards had shifted aside to let him pass.

it wasnt only him that was angry, Dazai looked like his mind was racing with both sadness and anger. 

"Stay here for a moment, i'm gonna go find him. Try to know eachother better, okay?"Dazai said as he threw his coat around his shoulders and ran after his partner, leaving me and Akutagawa alone.

(Chuuya)

That bastard just toys around with me all the time, so why do i feel so sad? Was i really just his little plaything until he got bored? Am i seriously that worthless? 

I didnt even know where I was going, I was just on my way to wherever my feet took me. 

That place ended up being the top of a cliff. It was a place me and Dazai used to hang around when we finished a mission back when we were fifteen. It brings back memories. Before i knew it, i was crying. Does nobody like me at all? Am i just a worthless peice of trash to everyone? Why..Why me? Why must I be the one person that everyone hates? Oh, right. Im not even human. I'm just a dumb lab experiment. A vessel for a god. Just a worthless body with no soul, a clone. I stepped towards the edge, the only thing i have recieved my whole life was insults and..and fake love. He doesnt love me, nobody does. Why was i such an idiot? 

I took another step forward. All i could think of was Dazai and what he truly thinks of me. Annoying. Worthless. Idiot. Inhuman. Monster.. all those words came from people who i have cared for my whole life.  The edge was steep, and it was a long way down. I put my foot over the edge, and was about to fall down, until i felt a pair of arms wrap around me protectively.

"What...?"