A consistent, tentative melody.
That's how I would describe love. It was something that was difficult to understand. Just being in love had been an exciting time, but what came after was even more exciting.
I still couldn't believe it. My heart almost jumped out of my chest with joy. What seemed impossible to me had now become the truth.
We loved, we laughed, we shared pain...
And even though love is so difficult to put into words, it is the best feeling I have ever felt. It gave me strength, I felt safe and I enjoyed his affection, which he finally showed openly.
An unexpected affection.
I could stare at him for hours without getting bored.
Just admiring him was enough for me.
His beautiful lips, his graceful posture... Maybe also his remarkable body. You might not notice it while looking at him, but he was pretty well built... Somehow, I hadn't really paid attention to it before.
This morning I woke up in his arms. His breathing was still slow, which is why I knew immediately that he was still asleep. In order not to wake him, I closed my eyes again. The warmth that had emanated from him had lulled me to sleep again, but only until life returned to his body.
"Good morning," he murmured and a gentle breeze passed over my head. I let go of him so he could sit up. He yawned before stretching.
"I'm going to play today," he murmured quietly, "The King of Diamonds." For a brief moment I felt fear coursing through my body before I nodded slowly.
Why was I afraid? I knew he was a damn good player.
He would survive.
"Alright... I'll get a few things we're missing in the meantime," I replied, giving him a smile before flopping back onto my back.
Believe me, I could practically hear the grin on his face, it was so wide at that moment.
That meant he had had another strange idea.
My intuition was right.
I was a little surprised when he suddenly leaned in and placed a kiss on my lips. Don't take it the wrong way, I was okay with it, but it was still a little weird.
Weird in the sense that it was so easy now.
My hand cupped his cheek and I stroked him with my finger. He looked at me with his chocolate eyes.
I felt like I was falling in love with this man all over again.
He grinned at me. And then...
...then suddenly I was sitting on his lap again. How was that possible? I had no idea, it had happened so quickly I didn't even really notice.
And now I suddenly looked into the eyes of a predator - not that it bothered me – and I smiled. So he had felt it too, the longing that had never left me after our first time.
He seemed to be waiting for my approval, so I took all the time in the world. He had teased me enough already, so it seemed fair to let him fidget a little.
Lo and behold, he actually got a little impatient. It was kind of cute to see how his expression changed.
"Ayuna...", his voice was now right next to my ear, and I smiled, "You do that intentionally, right?"
Nope, not at all, you know?
"Mmh, impatient?" I wanted to know and was a little surprised myself. Since when was I so... not innocent at all?
That was almost embarrassing!
Although... Nana would have said that I was now enjoying nature to the fullest.
"Oh? Was that just the agreement?" he wanted to know and suddenly I was lying on the mattress again and he positioned himself above me.
My face turned red like always. He laughed before leaning down again and placing a gentle kiss on my lips.
There was the Chishiya again, hiding in the rough pod - I guessed that only I had met this 'other' man so far.
The hot sparks began to take over my body. His hand was on my neck. Slowly and teasingly, he ran his fingers along my skin until he finally reached my collarbone. He then rotated his fingers there, practically sending electric shocks through my entire body.
If he continued like this, I would go crazy in a few seconds. He seemed to notice that he was slowly reaching my limits and began to grin.
"Well?", his voice was a little rough, "Would you like to give me the answer now?" Oh holy shit, he always found his ways to take the word out of my mouth.
"C-Chishiya!" I uttered and he leaned forward.
"Nuh? Still on last name basis?" he wanted to know and I looked him in the eyes. He wanted me to call him by his first name?
"S-Shuntaro?" I added and he grinned happily.
"That's better. And now I'd like an answer," his circles on my collarbone grew larger.
"You have my consent," I heard myself saying. He smiled, not arrogantly, but honestly.
"Mmh, I like that," he replied and his lips touched my neck. An embarrassing sound escaped my lips and I wanted to slap my hand over my mouth, but he wouldn't let me.
"That's exactly what I'm looking for," how could his voice be so damn mesmerizing? He captivated me again without me really noticing it.
His hands wandered deeper, again finding the places he had already discovered for himself.
Further and further down and...
OW!
A sharp pain paralyzed me for a short time, and I squealed a little in shock.
He stopped immediately.
Suddenly I realized it.
The wound, I hadn't told him about it... And now... would he be mad? What did I do now? The mood had been so good right now that I didn't want to ruin it. Or did I already do that?
"Ayu?", Chishiya's voice reached my ear, "What's wrong?" I couldn't lie anymore anyway, could I? He would see it anyway.
And so, I pushed the shirt up a little so he could see what Joshua had done to me. What I had hidden from him was now revealed.
I didn't dare look into his eyes. He would have to think I was naive. Just like everyone did.
But...
He didn't do that.
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