Falling for Rosie

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Rosella's POV

There are many things I have learned in the corporate world, that have allowed me to nearly perfect skill set to deal with problems that may arise throughout my career, to the smallest and basic problems to the most difficult ones. From how to choose bearable heels, to dealing with difficult clients, how to professionally reply to intolerable coworkers, and deal with difficult bosses

Its a structured approach to handle problems and situations with a leveled mind and logical sense

but there are somethings corporate skills can't help with, they maybe quite useful and successful in dealing with challenges in the workplace but they are practically useless in dealing with real life challenges, that takes understanding, compassion, and most importantly patience.

My cumulation of skills aren't equipped enough to handle the complex nature that is Samuel Blake, after last night's peculiar stroll and pizza snack, I feel like I'm trying to solve a puzzle where none of the pieces go together.

My first assumption of him was wrong, I thought he was using a mask of anger to assert dominance in his career, seeing as he is a young CEO who was appointed there is alot of doubt on his skills, and experience. In the corporate world that leaves you vulnerable to prey who would prosper on your failure, and you tiniest of flaws, whether its from people who want your position to gossip columns who are more than happy to write a story that will ruin their reputation and make it easier for someone to steal your job.

Usually a reputation of wrath and fear, is a quite effective mechanism to fends off the vultures, but that all it is.

A mechanism, look at the Petrova's who is known as the 'Red Queen' and 'Usurper King' respectively for their cut throat rise to power, and Jade who is known for her bad mouth and snarky attitude, neither of them are what they are known as, but simply use it as a shield to protect what's theirs.

Samuel's rudeness and anger may have been his shield to ward off his current nickname as 'skirt chaser' but there is more to him than what I had originally thought

His uneasiness in his voice, and the pained look in his eyes as he briefly mentioned about his childhood are still lingering in my mind, piqued my curiosity what happened to him to make him so angry, no matter how brief or small of a mention there was so much emotion held beneath it.

It's a back and forth battle between my heart and mind, my logic and my emotions.

Should I step over the boundaries of our assistant - boss relationship or stay within it's walls

The logical sense would be to stay within, and remain professional. We barely just met, we have no other relationship besides a professional one that isn't permanent, nor do I have any right to try to decipher him.

I'm just his assistant, and he is my boss.

It should be simple, but my heart clenches at the pain he is bottling up, worry that he doesnt have anyone to talk to, and my conscious screaming at me that I am turning a blind eye to someone's pain

If it were me, I would want someone to reach out to me even if I said otherwise.

"Oh mon Dieu" I curse aloud, slapping my cheeks to put an end to this back and forth debate with myself before I go crazy if I haven't already

I need to stop thinking about him

I could be over analyzing and blowing this whole situation out of proportion, to put a reason behind his rage when in fact he is just a mean and angry person

Look at me staying up till 1 having a mental battle with myself over my boss

I shouldn't be getting emotional evolved