Blind Hearts

❋He Who Shall Not Be Named❋

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Flashback

I'm shaking. I can't stop shaking. I watch the tears roll down my already purple cheek in this dark lit bathroom that smells of throw up.

I can't feel my heart beat. It didn't even hurt. It was my fault.

The door opens slightly making me jump.

Henry comes inside, he can barely walk towards me without falling over.  

"I'm s-sorry Henry. I didn't mean to." I let out with a cry. The tears just don't stop and I can't seem to get a grip.

He looks at me with his tired eyes, "Babe it's okayy, forgive and four ge- get right?"

He stumbles on each word and then comes close to me and gives me a hug and a kiss that could put a smile on my face any day.  

Which makes me feel so guilty.

"I-I love you." I whisper, another set of tears fall down.

Henry simply nods and wipes a tear that rolls down my other cheek.

"Come on babe lets go get something to drink."

Flashback Over

I probably stand there with my mouth wide open for more than an hour. I drank a lot than I have been lately tonight, but not this much. I cannot be hallucinating. Right?

"W-what are you doing here?" I stumble on my words not knowing what to say.

He looks almost exactly like he did when I last saw him, except he has a bit more of an unshaven look which oddly suits him.

"Me? What the hell are you doing here? Why aren't you in California?" He interrogates.

His anger starts to rise and I can feel my heart beat louder than any of this music.

When did it get so stuffy in here?

I can start to feel my hands become shaky. "I uh, it doesn't matter why I'm here. Maybe you should.. go away. I don't really want to deal with you." I admit. I can feel an anxiety attack approaching real soon if he doesn't get away.  

But since luck is never in my favor, he does not go away.

Where's Noah anyway? If I weren't a bit drunk I would be leaving right now as fast as possible.  

With nothing else to do without making a scene, I choose to turn away from him and try the 'if you don't see him he's not here'. But obviously he doesn't know this tactic because he only gets closer towards me.

I'm on the verge of tears as I feel him place his lips on my ear and whisper, "I'll always be here for you to deal with, babe."

He really hit home on that one because once I feel him leave the tears start to spill out. My heart can't stop beating 100 miles per second and I can't think straight.

It's been almost a whole year since I've seen him, how did I build this much of wall for my feelings for him. It was like I took white out and erased him from my memory and never expected to see the real picture again.  

My mind won't stop spinning and I'm having such a hard time focusing I decide to go to the bathroom and try to get a sense of things.

I'm about a yard or two from the bathroom finally and I feel a hand go around my shoulder. I flinch so fast so fast that I think I could've won an award for that one. I turn around and sigh in relief as I see it is only a confused looking Noah.